"Written on My Heart"

Thinking how it might have been
If you had never walk into my life
I would have been nothing
Without You where would I be

Every moment used to feel
Like living through a cold and starless night
But everything's changing
Everything is feeling right

# You gave me Your love
You lifted me up
Now I'm looking at forever
When I never thought I'd ever see that far
You, You're in my soul
Wherever I go
Now I know right from the start
Your love was written on my heart

How could I have been so blind
When You are always here so near to me
And there is no other
Who knows me the way I feel you do

And You were waiting all the time
For me to come around & finally see
All the love I was missing
There You were right beside me, always beside me

*chorus*

You made is so easy
Your love brought out the best in me
You are my light & my truth
I've found my destiny in You

*chorus*

You're forever written in my heart...

by Plus One

It's done!

Finally, it's all done... finished.... *let go a big pphhhewwww*

Well, I am really glad that it is all over. Though so, I have to admit that I am quite dissapointed of myself for starting late in the first place. I gotta plan my time well. I really really don't want this to repeat again. I feel so burdened and tired mentally and emotionally... other words.. burnt out! It's terrible, I tell you. I felt really really low... yet, I gotta finish all of these assignments one shot because of my procastination. It really tore me into pieces. I can't do this any longer.

As I said before, I need to reevaluate my life. I wanna be a better person... for God (mainly for Him), for others and myself. There's a lot that needs fixing/cleaning up in my life. I know that I can't be perfect, but I know that can at least try my best to be the best I can be... and be what He wants me to be and has originally planned or made me to be... Also, having that spirit of excellence that God wants me to have in my life. Doesn't mean that I have to achieve the best in everything or be the best amongst everyone else... but rather... be the best that I can be, put in my best in everything I do & in my service to Him as well as reaching the best that He has in mind for me.

I know that I can't avoid mistakes in my life and I have done... too many of those. I also know there are many more that mistakes that I will make in future, but, I'm rest assured that it's okie.. As long as I am not ignorant and learn from them, I know that I am at the right track.

I just hope that I won't live a life of regrets... but rather a life worth living with joy & gratitude in my heart.

2 down, 1 more to go

Can't wait.. 1 passed up already today, another still have like 15% left, and the last one... I need approximately 6 hours to finish it... hhmm better give myself 9 hours.

*if you are still blur, i'm actually talking about assignments*

I have so much that I wanna express and blog about it... Till the next time! *can't wait =)*

Part 2- Three Things About Me

3 PHYSICAL things about the opposite sex that appeals to me:
i. Smile
ii. Eyes
iii. Hair

3 things about the CHARACTER of the person:
i. Committed to God
ii. Helpful with the people around
iii. Joyful

3 of my favourite HOBBIES:
i. Music!!! *listen, play piano, a bit of guitar, dance*
ii. Collecting bookmarks, encouraging notes (paste it into my album)
iii. Collect photos of my friends & I (albums)

3 things that I wanna do really badly RIGHT NOW:
i. Finish up my assignments (3 left)
ii. Makanz!!!! *hungry... puppy dog eyes o_o*
iii. Pack my table >_< *it's in a mess again*

3 CAREERS you've considered:
i. Kindergarten Teacher
ii. Dance choreographer *start a dance movement*
iii. Preacher

3 places I wanna go for VACATION:
i. Cherating *the beach there is the cleanest- water so clear*
ii. Japan *where I can see the diff colors of the leaves*
iii. Korea *Winter Sonata*

3 things I wanna do before I DIE:
i. Build a strong family of my own in Christ
ii. Be involved in a dance movement
iii. Perhaps, Thailand for mission trip
*most importantly do God's will in my life*

3 ways I am STEREOTYPICALLY a GIRL:
i. I look like one
ii. I act like one *don't underestimate me- I can be rough when I want to*
iii. I am one!!!!

3 groups of peeps I want them to do this QUIZ 'n paste it in their blog:
i. My CG peeps
ii. My College frenz
iii. Anyone who is reading this

Part 1- Three Things about Me

The things I do when I am taking a break from my assignments... *destress*
Do quizzes, and one of it is this!!! =P
Anyway, my dear friend wants me to do this... so here I go...
(I think I did something similar in my old blog)

3 NAMES I go by:
i. Lizzie/Liz
ii. Liza/Lisa
iii. Squirrel

3 SCREEN NAMES you have had:
i. Lisae
ii. Starlightliz
iii. Strawberry

3 PHYSICAL things I like about myself:
i. Eyes
ii. Finger 'n finger nails
iii. Hands

3 Physical things I DO NOT like about myself:
i. Legs
ii. Height
iii. Nose

3 things I am AFRAID of:
i. not being able to go to heaven
ii. Lizards *I don't know why!!! it's just slimy*
iii. Rats

3 things of my everyday ESSENTIAL:
i. Handphone
ii. Wallet
iii. Tissue

3 of my favourite BAND or music ARTIST:
i. Planet Shakers
ii. Jaci Valesquez (just only =P, still haven't checked out all her songs)
iii. BLUE
iv. Kenny G (I have to add this!)

3 of my favourite SONGS:
i. Imagine Me Without You by Jaci Valesquez
ii. Korean: Because I'm a Girl by KISS
iii. I will be Here by Steven Curtis Chapman

3 things I want in a RELATIONSHIP:
i. God at the centre of it
ii. Guidance
iii. Love & faith/trust

to be continued....

"Start A Family Young"

Heheh well the topic above, was my persuasive speech for today. I was suppose to present this speech in 3 and a half minute! No, the lecturer did not pick this topic for me. I picked the topic myself. How did I come up with it? I learnt it from Grace, 'kill two birds, with a stone' or something like that... My debate for Social Psyc paper was opposing the notion "Women should get married early to maximize child-bearing years". This time, for persuasive speech, I am supporting that notion.

So, about my speech... When I told them about the ideal age of starting a family, found on the online forum and what I think its ideal too, their jaw dropped... my answer: "Mid-20's". Mid-20's for women and for men, mid-20's - 30s... *did anyone's jaw here dropped? =P* I know some people, well, most people in this generation would disaprove. It seem so impossible to be able to support a family that age and probably the inidividual isn't mature enough. Well, of course it has it's advantages and disadvantages... That's where persuasion is important =P

Well, I strongly believe that parents age gap does play an important role in being able to connect with thier kids well. Maybe I should conduct such research to check. Anywayz, some may ask why do I believe in it strongly... Reason is, my parents are living proof of it. They got married and had me in their mid-20s. To be exact, the got married when they were 24 years old and had me when they were 27 years old... and my brother, 30 years old. Amazing, huh? ; )

I feel that I am able to have this connection with my parents now because the generation gap between us isn't too far apart. We have similar interest... I learnt to love jazz from my dad... My family learnt to use the computer through my mum (she's the comp expert in the house *hard to believe?* =P). We get to hang out a lot- watch Marvel movies are our favs, we play games- boardgames (scrabble), bowling, snooker, carom. Mum & I share clothes together.. well, now i hand-down my clothes to her la... I can't fit into her shoes- it's too small! >_<>

I'm not saying that if those with kids in their older age are unable to have this kind of connection with thier family. Perhaps, it seem harder for them to do so... Of course, there are other factors to how you are able to connect well with ur kids. I'm just saying that younger parents may have that kind of advantage. But of course, they themselves, must want to be involved in their children's life.

Wanna see one of my family pic?NZ pic about 2 years ago! Nice eh? I remembered that I was too scared to ride the horse myself. I needed someone else to pull and lead the horse for me. My parents and bro didn't need that! They controlled the horses themselves. So unfair!!! >_< Anywayz, I still had fun & the scenery there was beautiful- mountains high & low!

Reminded me of the song from Sister Act2- "ain't no mountains high enough, ain't no valleys low enough... nuthin can keep me... keep me from YOU" =P

Entertaining way of learning

It was rather interesting yesterday! ^_^ We needed to do 4 more quizzes for our Abnormal Psyc... and so, we did! Well, sort of... through playing charades and win/lose draw (pictionary) IN CLASS =P hehehe we did taboo before.. Let me remind you, this is part of our assessment... it's for 2 of our quizzes marks (10 marks)... Hehe but we didn't really score well la... However, I have to admit, it is really fun and exciting way to learn. I know perhaps they have more of these kinds of fun activities in US primary or high schools but never before in Malaysia!!! We intergrated boardgames with lessons... in University College!!! hehehe =P *i am still trying to digest that fact*

My lecturer, classmates and I had a great time guessing what others tried to act/draw, laughing and enjoying ourselves with the pictures people in each team drew or act. Entertaining! Boy, I don't think that I can ever forget this 'class' experience. For those who wants to be a future teacher, this can be one of your ideas, ya know ; ) Don't just stick to the standard, rigid way of teaching. Think beyond the box.

I believe that if u teach ur students creatively, they are able to learn better. There are pros and cons of trying something new (con= Using students as guinea pigs =p *jk*) and using the usual, standard way... I guess, the best would be a combination of those two ^_^

This lecturer of mine is really really good. When she teaches, she explains and illustrate her points well. She doesn't go around the bush. Straight cut... not the type of lecturers that would copy their notes from the textbook or take textbook examples. Her examples are always related to life application. You don't even need to buy the textbook, if you attend her class!!! I really respect her! Everyone does. Don't be fooled by her size. She may be small in statue, but she's known for her tough personality. She induce fear in her students. She earns her respect. Stick by her rules or get eaten alive >_<>

She is also considerate enough to postpone our assignments because she knows that since some of her class students maybe presenting for Research Colloqioum last Saturday and all her students are compulsary to attend it, she gave us more time to finish up our assignments. She can be really really cute when she teach. I notice that she loves teaching... and whenever she doesn't seem to have the mood at the beginning of the class, towards the middle and end, you can see her enjoying herself as she teaches. Maybe I am wrong... but anyone else noticed that? *whoever who knows this lecturer of mine* Well, that's what I got from what I observed =P

I think that lecturer who enjoys his or her teaching work, and are are able to put up with brats like us are well-respected lecturers *salute*

Mercy Me

I realized that I have been blogging quite consistently here, compared to my old blog place. I am excited to blog more during the holidays! ^_^ I already have things in mind to share and talk about. I just hope I won't forget it all. One more week before my sem break, and then exams. Assignments, still have 4 left, but I am on it bit-by-bit. Quite happy that I eventually get off my lazy butt and started it!

Anywayz, on the topic today... mercy! I've been shown mercy by 2 of my lecturers! I've been really stressed trying to finish my assignments, one-by-one, bit-by-bit. Both of my lecturers are really really, so so, extremely kind and considerate enough to look beyond our circumstances and extended our assignments due dates!!!! ^_^ Thank God for them!!!

This reminded me of God's mercy upon my life... the second, third, forth, etc (the list never ends..) Well, basically the number of chances that He has given us to fix our mistakes in life. The number of times He forgave us for the things we have done that had hurt Him and that is so wrong in our lives, also disobeying Him. The times He accepted us back with open arms when we run away from His presence. We are showered by His mercy everyday... but yet do we realize or notice it?

Neverending assignments!

Most of my friends are having holidays!!! Why oh why is the semester so long!!! My gosh... I really need a break. Seriously! *feel like strangling someone or pulling my hair out* sigh... I only have this week & next week left. Though so, I have lotsa assignments to pass up. I so so DISLIKE assignments. But, I can't run away from it, can I? I can choose not to do it... heck, I can even choose not to study >_<>

Don't get me wrong. I love what I study... Pychology (my major), Communication papers & Art papers *music & drama* (my electives). The thing about me is, if I don't get it started, like really put my mind into it, to do the assignments or study, I would dread it. But if I am already in it, striving through and put my heart into it, I could have really enjoyed myself doing so. If it wasn't for the pressure & stress of all the lateness/last minute-ness (planning falacy- I have a terrible sense of allocated timing for planning). Lizzie, oh lizzie *smack myself*

2 more weeks, girl! "Hang in, there!" The weeks seem really long. Though I have 2 weeks of lessons in college left, the workload doesn't seem to have reduced much. It did reduce quite a bit la. THANK GOD! *close eyes & wish it all to go away* Hmmm... 2 more weeks! 2 more weeks! den another 2 weeks to end term! *breathe in.... and out* I can do this! Support me, yeah!!!

Can't stand myself! MakeOVER needed

I know, it has been a while since I've updated my blog. Assignments have been driving me nuts!!! *I wish I can be alergic to assignments as I am allergic to peanuts or groundnuts* I can't believe it's already November! Dear, oh dear, time sure passes by really fast. Next thing I know, I have grandkids running around me and jumping on my lap, asking me to tell them a story >_<>

I've been a zombie last few days trying to finish up my assignments. I am really surprised that I have not fall seriously ill yet. Usually, I am the weakest in my family, in term of health. This is a result of being overly active (always going out because of meetings, practices, etc etc..)- not enough rest for the body & my terrible lifestyle- sleeping extremely late, eating irregularly (sometimes eat too much & other times, skip meals), also not really responsible with my work- all the "last minutes" in the world! I guess that define my life. They say it's a typical student's life. I am surprised though, to find that many of my friends fall sick more often than I do, this year.

I realize that I can't live like any longer. It's ruining my life. I don't want to live a slacking life... known as the lazy, irresponsible girl, undependable person... Heck, my younger brother is more responsible & dependable than I am. I even get scolded by him often. Would you believe it if I told you that he taught me how to save money early this year? Yep, he did. How am I gonna do my best or put in my best if I live this way? How am I gonna live a life of virtue, aiming to live a life of excellence (the best that I can be), if I don't change my lifestyle? I am too comfortable with where I am... yet overly burdened with all these nonsense. *sheesh* and they say, the oldest in the family are usually the independant, responsible one. So, not!

Hmmm... I so want to have a 'makeover'. No, not the dressing. I think the way I dress is good enough (as long as I am comfortable - though my friends did say that I don't really have much fashion sense >_< & some of my clothes make me look aunty *hehehe* dat's kinda funny ^_^). No, not the make-up, makeover. Makes me all concious & I'm sure many would agree that natural beauty is the best ya! =P As much as I would love to highlight my hair purplish-red or staightened it, the cost will kill me. The "MAKEOVER" I am talking about is the way I carry myself... the way, I organize my thoughts, the way I live my life... My life needs straightening up. I so so so need discipline.

I realize now, why discipline is so important. Never quite understood why last time. I am always craving for freedom, for some reason. Not that I do not have it... I do, really.. but I wish that I could have more.. But I know if I got my hands with too much freedom, I'll go outta control. I can be a hyperly active and *WILD* kid, for those who really know me (I think I hear some of my friends snickering & laughing at me). I know quite well that I am capable of abusing my freedom. Now the phrase make more sense to me. With great power, comes great responsibility as well *Spidey's phrase* This includes the power of freedom. Seem contradicting, huh?

Yepz. I hope that I can start the makeover after my sem ends. Need some time to think about my life.. reflect on it.. I don't wanna regret during the last minute of my life, on my deathbed. I wanna look back and tell myself, tell God and the peeps aroud me, I lived a life that I can be proud of.