Never Alone

I waited for You today
But You didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

[Chorus:]
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

[Chorus]

We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

[Chorus]

by Barlow Girls

Give Up

When I feel desperate and I just don't know what to do anymore...
I give up...

In those times where I just don't understand, or can't comprehend what He wants to do in my life... The overwhelming thought of what can happen and what is gonna happen in your life...
I just give it up to the Lord...

Even when it is so hard to let go... of the one thing I desired for.. the thing which I thought would be the best for me..
O Lord, help me to give it up...

I felt as if I am left powerless. It is as if circumstances have forced me to give it all up...
I don't know what YOU want to do.. or what YOU have in stored for me in the future..
But now.. I am just so tired in every aspect in my life.
I don't have the energy to fight over it anymore...
My heart cried so much... trying to fight You... but.. no matter what... I can never win...
You will never cease to keep banging at my door... You will almost always whisper those words in my ears... Sometimes it is SO IRRITATING!! >.<
But You do it because You love me and You know what is best for me...

Just do what You want...

I give up... I give up my emotions/feelings.. I give up trying so hard to keep something precious in my life... I give up my fears... I give up trying to win people's heart... I give up my weaknesses and my strengths... I give up my own desires... I give it all up.

Help me to let go with delight.. to do Your will with delight. May Your words in my life, not just be laws over my life... but will be words in which I would love to follow all the days of my life with delight.. delighting in what You want me to do.. instead of following my own ways, and only do the things I understand.

When Movie Speaks

It's amazing how movies can speak to you... I know it did to me...
Awesome movie... Thanks for the great lessons drawn from the movie "Evan Almighty".

"If someone prays for patience, you think God will give him the patience... or does He gives the opportunity to be patient?
If someone prays for courage and God gives Him courage... does it give the opportunity to be courageous?
If someone prays for a family to be close, you think God will give the person a warm & fuzzy feeling, or the opportunity for the person to love?"

God: "Whatever I do, I do because I love you"

Human: Why choose me?
God: You want to change the world. I want to change the world too :)

You want to change the world? One act of random kindness at a time.
A.R.K. - Act of Random Kindness!

Live life

WORK as if you don't need the money
LOVE as if nobody has hurt you
DANCE as if nobody was watching you
SING as if nobody was listening
LIVE as if this was paradise on earth

Nothing in the future will correct those moments, that you have missed in the past.

Everything in its time

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like Your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

by Corrinne May

For better or for worst?

It's almost the end of the 6th month of my stay in Adelaide.
Many events happened in between... experienced both the happiness and shed some tears.
Friendships started and grew... some blossomed... while a few deteriorate... A number was mended.. but well, not all could be mended like you would like them to be.
People close to me before wasn't as close now... the people whom I met latter became closer than I could possibly imagine.

Have I changed for better or for worst? Well, I chose to lead my own path...
When one choose to lead one's path, and only want to walk it alone... it becomes very lonely. It is tiring and when you fall, no one is there to pick you up or to push you on to move when you are discouraged.

I wish I could turn back time and make things right.
Then again... without these experiences... I wouldn't have learned so many other things.
Or see many things... or realize different things about myself and others.

Sometimes those who were with you and for you, can turn away and be against you... and the ones who seemed to be against you are supporting you... It's confusing...
Why do people need to judge one another? Why can't each person give one another a chance... taking whatever impressions there are about another, putting it aside and know that there is still some goodness and hope in the person...

Dealing with people is the most tiring thing you can ever do... but people are worth it... Right? Or maybe I too have lost faith and hope in people... 'cuz no one else seem to quite understand the whole point of it. Hmm.. the worst thing is when you see your own people going against one another. Sigh...

Anyway, the path you choose now, will determine the kinda life you want to live in the future. The outcome and consequences are inevitable. What is done is cannot be undone.. but what is not done yet, can still be done correctly.

For better or for worst? I may have become 'worst' over this 6 mths... but... I want to choose to walk a better path from now on...

Hoiday Craze & Results

Winter holidays. Gettin' freaking cold here. With the temperature like this, I can't imagine in a place which snows!!! I am already wearing like 4 layers. The temperature goes down to about 10C and below at night. Wohoo!!

Anyway, I've been away for camp. Last 4 days was good! I know many people won't believe this.. but I actually went for a Chinese Youth Camp. Let me emphasize the word CHINESE! Yes, I am a chinese.. but those who know me.. I am a BANANA- One who do not know how to speak or understand Chinese language. Then, what am I doing in that camp, right?

Haha! I also wondered the same thing. What the did I get myself into? O_o
Let me show you my scary schedule... I have 4 weeks holidays right, from 27th June '07 - 22nd June '07.

29/6 - 3/7 : sick!
5/7 & 8/7 : Shoppin' (whole day out)
9/7 - 10/7 : Girls Ministry Slumber Party!
11/7 - 14/7 : Goodwood Chinese Youth Camp
15/7 : Big Bro's birthday party! =) Anime Costume Party
16/7 - 20/7 : Houseboat with 4 other friends
23rd onwards : Uni starts!

Wohoo!! Fully booked for the hols. It was scary when I looked at it at first.
Anyway, will update you guys more about camp & trips the next time.

Oh yea, I got back results for 3 of my subjects, out of 4 subjects. All Credits!!! AMAZING!!! =) Praise God! I thought I'll only get passes... I was so afraid of failing before that... Thank You, thank You!!! I'll aim to do my best for my next and last sem! =)

That's all from me... for now.

Down with...

Fever... phlegm... flu... headaches.... odd stomach pains lately.

Gonna rest for the week before gettin' busy again for the hols.

Will blog more soon...