More human?

Sometimes I wish that I can be more 'human'.
What do I mean by human?
More in-tuned with my emotions and being able to be sensitive to others' emotions and needs.

Sigh.
I was a emo-ing almost the whole week. With that, I didn't quite have much to offer to others.

Maybe it's an excuse? Is it considered an excuse? I dunno.

However, ultimately we are called to love one another and I think when Jesus said it, it's like the love that He showed us through the Word.

Unconditional love.

But we are limited as humans! Ok.. let's not run towards that idea yet. Start with the idea of loving one another first, with what we can and who we are...

How can we or do we love one another?
- through encouragement
- through support
- through rebuke (not often do we percieve this as one do that do we?)

I used to be a pretty good encourager & supporter... (I think ler... I hope so! LOL!) But now... I think I lost my touch.

"How on earth am I gonna be a Youth Worker?" Lizzie wonders to herself.

Many would surely start with the encouraging and support bit... but after a long while of doing so, it usually leads to the rebuke part if the individual just doesn't listen or is ignorant of what you or others tried to do.

Who on earth likes to be rebuked? I personally don't.

But do we need it at times? Yes. Sometimes when we think too negatively and are ignorant of certain things in our lives or what we have, I would think, yes I need to be rebuked. Most often a gentle rebuke at times... but there are other times a harsher rebuke (like parents to their children). Yes, it may seem that they don't understand us and all... God Himself discipline's His children because He loves us.

But pls pls pls, don't always use rebuking others as loving one another. Loving one another means being sensitive towards others as well. Rebuking is not the ONLY means of loving others =.= Some people just don't watch what they say (I have to admit, I am at wrong as well).

Often what we really need is someone to just be there.
Without fancy words, without advices, without judgements... without the need to really do anything or expressing yourself even. Just... being... there. The stillness of being there and staying, can make a whole difference.

Even Jesus called His disciples to stay from a short distance while He was in deep sorrow and went on to pray to the Father (Matt 26:38).

Sometimes we try too hard to encourage & support others... to know what are the right words we can say or the right things we could do to make things better for them.

However, sometimes it's just giving the person time on his or her own... giving space to just allow the individual to mourn, reflect, realise and learn somethings on his or her own.

Even Jesus had his personal time in prayer with the Father.


My wish list...

I wish I could be more sensitive...
I wish I would not grow tired in helping others...
I wish I could be stronger in understanding and dealing with my emotions...
I wish to be careful with my own words & my own thoughts...
I wish I can help others deal with their emotions...
I wish I cared more most often... although many times I wish I cared less...
I wish I have more strength in ministering to others...
I wish I know how to deal with others more effectively... as individuals... as the people that God has made them...
I wish I have the right words to say or know what to do...
I wish I have the right attitude towards certain situations...
I wish I could be more assertive in what I thought and believe in...
I wish I could have done a better job in being a friend...

"I wish"

Perhaps, I shouldn't wish anymore... but turn to the One who who knows it all and would teach me how to... All I need to do is ask, learn & obey... It all comes right back at Him.

Oh God... Only You can help, mould me into the person You want or called me to be. Also, the person You could use for Your greater purposes. I may not be perfect but You are perfect. Therefore, only You can perfect-ize me... even when I am not. And what does it mean to be perfect? Only You know.

So, more human? Jesus lived on earth and showed what true humanity is all about and what it should be.