One time part-time job

Today was interesting... I was asked whether I was free to 'wash dishes' in the afternoon after church, and I'll be given $50 for it. I was like.. O_o *blur* at first! LOL! Since my friend really needed someone to replace the other person, who was sick, I agreed to help. I was clueless.. just follow only ler. Besides, my only plan for the day was to do my weekend chores, before I leave to Melbourne.

We went to Adelaide Hills... I so forgot that I had travel sickness... >.< So on the way, kinda dizzy lor but good thing wasn't that bad the ride. I got to spend time with this girl in OCF. I've known her but we didn't really get a chance to really talk and really got to know each other until today. So, it was awesome la!

Then we went to this Christmas BBQ private function in a house in Adelaide Hills, organized by one of the director of the units in Flinders hospital. WOW! The place was breath-taking. Personal winery place, there was a lake nearby and mountains ahead.. Wow... That wasn't it.. the food they were preparing for the party was DeLiCioUs!!!! *yum* Cooked by M'sians! (not me la). My friend and I just cut food only, and help to serve ppl. After that our main job were to wash dishes :)

You know what, I didn't know Australians had a different way to wash dishes. I really didn't know that lor... Now I know why the sink is often filled with water in my house... Aussies conserve water one, so they fill the sink up with water and put dish detergen inside after that. Then, they soak the utensils and plates in the sink and use the water+soap from the sink to wash. They don't wash it under running water like we do. I do agree that the way we do it, would really waste heaps of water. On the other hand, I wasn't sure how clean the dishes would be even after we washed it O_o I don't know man!

Anyway.. it was really an interesting day! I am very very happy being able to be part of this. We got to talk to some Australian ppl working in the hospital. We got to try out great food! eg. BBQ Prawns *yum* and so many deserts. It was ssssoooo delicious and irresistible! *saliva come out of mouth as we stare at the desert* We got to eat them.. bwahhaah!!! XD

If only my handphone didn't die on me *sobz (T.T)* I can take pic! WAHahahaha!!!
Sigh, but it's alright :)

Well, we each received $50 as promised! They were very generous.. even when I broke a glass >.< Yes, my clumsiness... I'm sorry!!! (T.T) But they told me not to worry and didn't deduct anything from my pay. I was shocked. I thought I'll get scolded or something. Wow. Amazing people. Thank you for your mercy!!!

So yeah. Today was a fruitful day! Came back, can't rest yet.. had to do laundry and do my chores before I leave to Melbourne tomorrow.

Yes, going to Melb tomorrow!!! Yey! Get to see my bestfriend and ko! Can't wait!

What's Good for Me

I ain't no queen of hearts,
I go through stages..
I fall in love
then complicate it
yea, you know the feeling
without much hope
just blind ambition
pretending that there's nothing missing
i always kept believing

that more..
i thought if i had more
i wouldnt get so bored
but everything just left me empty
love walking in and out of my door
wasn't good enough no more
when i don't trust myself, life really sucks

and the first time i thought it but i didn't do it
last time that's when i really blew it
so this time im gonna do it different
cuz i know i know i know
if i put everything i have into it
eventually, i'm gonna get what's good for me

cuz i don't want to
live my life wonderin'
if only
i woulda
i shoulda
i coulda
but i didn't
cuz i only blame myself yeah again...

by Lucy Woodward

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Do what u think is best vs. His best?
Try so hard to be perfect vs. being the person He wants u to be, with flaws and weaknesses as He designed you to be?

Sometimes I wondered whether I stopped believing...
But if I did, I guess it was like what my mum told me
"girl, if u do not believe, u would not keep asking yourself what God wants and for His decision..u will decide for yourself"

Guess I'm just hanging on to that thin rope... still holding on as best as I can... If I let go, I'll fall.. but I am not letting go anytime soon!

Every Season

Every evening sky, an invitation
To trace the patterned stars
And early in July, a celebration
For freedom that is ours
And I notice You
In children’s games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer

And even when the trees have just surrendered
To the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September
And sending us inside
Still I notice You when change begins
And I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what has been and was to come
You are autumn

And everything in time and under heaven
Finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white, all creation
Shivers underneath
And still I notice you
When branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even now in death, You open doors for life to enter
You are winter

And everything that’s new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe
What was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season’s change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring

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The seasons in my life this year... It has been a wild ride.
Different people sent during different seasons.
Different experiences I needed to go through.
Different lessons from those experiences and from what I've heard and seen.
Different life stories heard and to be told.
Different things to let go.
Different timings for different decisions.

The changes in seasons determine how strong you are in going thru each of it. Each season has it's purpose. Each season requires a decision to be made. When a new season comes, you have to let go of the old, so that you can live in the new.

Spare specs back!

Oh btw, remember I told you that I lost my specs?

Last mon, for my first exam, I wore my sunglasses in the exam hall. LOL!!!! The invigilators did not ask anything! woohoooo! But some people must have thought it was weird though. LOL! I got teased a lot in church, during lunch, at home and my friend's house when I wore sunglasses at home, in the building, in the dark and at night. Sorry la.. I have to la.. if not I can't concentrate on the person when I talk to him or her, since I can't exactly see the person's face/eyes when I speak.. well, when I put on my sunglasses, friends said it's hard to talk to me 'cuz of the sunglasses. LOL! Now.. that's why eye contact is important when having a conversation! hehe.

I got back my specs yesterday :) Thanks to my parents who passed it (spare specs) to a friend's friend (pilot) who flew to Adelaide for a couple of days. I was supposed to collect from him but had an upset stomach and had to prepare for today's exam, so couldn't go to the city to meet with him. Thanks to my big bro who helped me collect my specs from him :)

Well, thank you friends (Michele, Daniel & Melvin) who helped me find for my specs when I lost it. I have no idea where is it? At the side road, smashed on the road or left in grocery store? So weird. Like it evaporated into air and cannot be found again >.<

Thank you dear friends, Kah Wai & Nesta, who brought me and teman me to the specs shop. Tried some specs when they were around. The prices are scary though.. and they were branded!

Thank you to my dearest parents who found a way to somehow send my spare specs here. They are amazing! Sorry that I am so careless >.< I've learnt from my lesson - to keep things properly and carefully!!!

Thank you Captain (won't reveal the pilot's name)for the willingness to bring my specs here! It was quite dark the past few days... suddenly with the specs, everything looks brighter! and helps a lot for exam.. and don't have to buy new expensive specs :) Thank you for saving my eyesight.

Thanks to my big bro, Peter who recommended me a specs shop to go, which has discount.. unfortunately couldn't find the shop, but it's alright. Think would have spent big bucks if I did go and get new specs. Maybe there was a purpose not being able to find for the shop you recommended. LOL! Well, thanks for helping me collect my specs and passing it to me :) You rock!

Exams so far... *sobz*

Biological and learning Psyc was alright though I though I could have done better :( 60 MCQ questions... My friends finished within 45 mins, and they were wondering why did I take 1 and half mins in exam hall to finish. I kiasu mah ;P Choosing answers... recheck again and again... The stuff I really studied, didn't come out much and I forgot some... the other stuff I last minute studied, I think I remembered more and did better >.< Sigh... Well, at least I put more effort this sem to prepare for my exam. That I gotta give myself some credit.

Research Methods 2 today. I gotta say I am kinda happy that I actually understood the questions and what they wanted. I got to answer most of the questions in the interpretation of tables and data part. WOW! Thanks to my friends who thought me again and again! Thanks Michele and Daniel :) The sad part, I didn't have time to really concentrate on MCQs (20 quests - 20 marks) and short answers (10 marks). As a result of that, I have no idea whether I can really pass this course :( Yea.... I spent almost an hour for each of the last section, interpretation of SPSS datas and writing up the results and all.. in which, I didn't really get to finish either. I started from the last section and moved to the first section... MCQs have to use my memory and tembaking skills. My mind was sooooo tired, stressed and panicky. All I wanted to do is to get out of the exam hall. Super cannot tahan >.< Plus, I soooo needed to go to the toilet T.T Keep telling myself, "wait wait wait.. lil bit more.. during exam better not go.. not enough time..". Haihz...

Well 2 more papers. Wanna prepare well for these papers!

Next Mon - Cognition and Perception - 60MCQs, 6 prepared essays - 3 hrs
Next Tues - Introduction to Organisational Psyc - 2 essays - 1 hr

Can't want to get exams off my back... T.T Lil bit more Lizzieeeeeee.... and whoever else who are going thru exams as well..

"Aja Aja FIGHTING!!!!!"

Blinded with shades

I love my beautiful sunglasses though my parents scolded me for getting it the last time.
This time it'll safe me because this is the only pair of specs I have here in Aus. My spare specs was unfortunately sent back to M'sia and has not returned. My current specs.... dropped off when I was wearing my sunglass >.<

sigh... I know for the past few days, I've been thinking and day-dreaming of getting a new pair of specs when I go home to M'sia or try out contacts. Just didn't occur to me that I'll lose my specs NOW just before exams.

Reminded me of the time I first lost my specs when I was 12 years old.. just before the main middle school examination as well. The 2nd time I lost it was during Psychology camp. So this makes it the 3rd time losing my specs I guess >.<

Well, at least I've got my cool sunglasses ;)

Loving my sunglasses! I thank God I have them! XD Never regretted getting it!
Gonna ask for exemption from uni for wearing sunglasses in exam hall while doing the papers. or smtng!
Pray pray that can get la!

Diff language of encouragement

Ok.. since this is my blog.. I can write whatever I want rite?
Well, this goes to me.. and those who needs support and encouragement for exams or whatever you're facing k!


English: All the best! I can do it!
Malay: Selamat Berjaya! Saya Boleh!
Chinese: Jia Yao!
Japanese: Gambatte!
Korean: Aja aja, FIGHTING!

hehe I love the Korean one :) I learnt that from the Kdramas! They love to say that.
So now, say to yourself all these... I say to myself too when things are tough for me, especially recently.
Just some word of encouragement, to boost up my confidence within me... that I can go through this period and season.
Also to tell myself not to give up and be strong!!! 'Cuz I know I can!!!

Exam T.T HeLp!!!

Priorities for these 2 weeks: EXAM preparation.

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS

Ok.. this is driving me nuts a lil.
I am more worried/anxious 'bout exam compared to last sem, GOOD.
Failing rate is higher, BAD.
No understanding of what I've learned from classes and lecture notes, BAD.
Earlier preparation (not much), GOOD.
Not being able to focus, BAD.
Supposed to be easier to prepare for these papers, GOOD.
Focus isn't there, BAD.
Can't digest any info, BAD.
My mind is more focused on goin off for holiday, watchin' more dramas & go back to M'sia, BAD.
All I wanna do is sleep, BAD.
No motivation what-so-ever to study, BAD.
Mind keeps wandering about, BAD.

Man... so many BADs than GOODs >.<>.< Don't have much time to pack either. So have to hurry!!!
I only have 2 weeks to pack.
1 week before I leave to Melb for hols, and another week when I come back here.. but I'll be busy visiting places with my family when they come to visit. At least, I've got my family to help to pack as well then.

6 more weeks, then BYE BYE Adelaide :)

Music => emotions

Why do people listen to music with a different language although they do not understand it?
Can we somehow understand what the song ?mean deep inside?
Or is it just the tunes in which stirs the person's emotions?

I love to hear Korean and Japanese songs, especially soundtracks from the series for some reason, although I don't understand a thing they are singing.

Well, maybe it's the tune of the song that speaks to my soul?
The desire to hear smtng different than what I've already know?

hhm... there's something about music... that evoke individual's emotions & memories... whether you understand what it's saying a not...

I can't wait...

I can't wait to finish up my exams.. and go to Melbourne..
I can't wait to see my best friend and big bro there..
I can't wait to go home... back to M'sia... where I belong...
I can't wait to see my dear friend back home, who has been there for me...
I can't wait to see my brother, and disturb him when I am bored...
I can't wait to spend time with my friends and family...
I can't wait to visit my church once again... in the new building...
I can't wait to see my own house... and be in my own room and bed...

I can't wait...
I can't wait...

I can't wait... to see the one's close to me again... the ones in M'sia or Aus (Perth, Melb/Adelaide)... when I visit... Wherever that is, when I decide where to stay...

I wish I can tell you more about the things in my heart... but sorry, I can't reveal them...

I just... can't... wait... any longer...
Can I? Should I?
How long will it be...?
How long must I wait...

Does it really matter? 'Cuz... at the end of the day, I still have to wait...
Seems that life is all about waiting...

Somethings I learnt today...

No one else can take responsibility of your own life.

No one else can control one's heart, thought, feelings and actions.

No one else is to be / can / should be blamed if one cannot control one's feelings or thoughts.

Missing Home

I can't believe I am away from my family for 10 months already. Guess what? I actually survived! XD

Well, I miss my family a lot! :( I was just thinking yesterday evening about my family, while helping my friend with his filming assignment.

Family... sigh... I haven't really spent much time with them especially when I turned 16? I've always been so busy with my own work, ministries and friends. Family was a less priority for me at that time because I've taken for granted of the fact that they are always there and around.. at home.

Now when I think back about my family.. mum, dad, lil bro, aunt and uncle, who visits once a year, I really miss their company.

• I miss sitting around the table, eating with them during dinner.
• I miss going out for breakfast - indian mamaks, chinese hawker stalls (dim sum, prawn mee...) or cafes.
• I miss going out for lunches with my dad - "CHAP FUN!!!" and remembered my dad ask me not to be greedy... piling all the diff dishes on my plate :)
  
• I miss the times we went out for movie together as a family, or stayed at home watching a movie together.
• Years back, we used to play; chess, checkers, carom, ping pong (not much). I'm more a boardgame kinda person.
  
• I miss the times we went grocery shopping together, though I find it a chore at that time.
• I miss learning from my mum, how to bake cookies for valentine's day/friendship day and for Chinese New Year (CNY).
• I miss helping dad to compile all the CNY cards and hang it on the wall. We use it as deco in the house.
• I miss putting up the Christmas tree with them. I haven't been around the past years to do it :(
• I miss helping dad with the Mensa Treasure Hunt papers, stapling them.
• I miss my aunt and uncle heaps when they come back!!! We play games, watch movies, chit-chat... hhmm I should write them a mail soon.
• I miss my bro!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cannot disturb him when I'm here!!!! I cannot poke him when I want to!!!! I can't talk to him about stuff he isn't interested to here.
  
• I miss learning from my dad how to organize the photo album :)
  

My family... I find my parents to be a wise couple. I wished I listened to them when I was younger.. the advices they gave me to be firm, strong in character and not let others affect me so much. I wish I could be stronger in the way I deal with life thru of the way they brought me up and thru the way they have lived their lives. I truly respect and honour them. They are my role-models. I do want to be like them, in handling with people, ministries and family. I love them very very much.

When I come back... I want to...

• Cook a few dishes for you guys (my family)
  
• Learn to cook even more dishes and bake, so that I can bless others and my family with it
• Be around more often, especially during family time
• Go out for movies with you guys (any Marvel movies out soon?)
• Play boardgames!
• Help around with grocery shopping, shopping, marketing...
• Help bro with his assignment if needed
• Spend more time with aunt and uncle when they come
  
• Just sit at my parents feet at times (ok not literally), but to listen to the advices they give about life
• Help clean up the house! I know how to clean already!! XD
  

Sigh.. so much to do.. but so little time :(
I don't know how long I'll be back for... but I really am looking forward to go back home. Wish I can go home much much earlier. At the moment, there is some problems with the flight tix.


I love you guys a lot! Heaps of love, from your daughter, sister and niece.