Day of Rest

BWhahahaah!! I can finally say, "IT IS FINISHED"!!!! XD *Woohooo*

Yesterday was the last day of assignment.. T.T "Thank You God!!" *with tears of joy*

So SYOK! After I handed the assignment to my lecturer.. I went out.. feeling relieved and super tired. I only had an hour and half sleep that night.

It was a windy and sunny day (well the sun occasionally appear). I went out to grassy area.. and told myself.. I have to do this before I leave the uni.. I sat on the grace put my bag on it, and just lie down on the grass. "Finally!!!" So nicee I tell you, to just lie down on green pasture, not worrying whether it is dirty and just rest there... The clouds was shifting.. the sky so blue.. the environment so peaceful! I'm just loving it! It's like taking a wholeee chunk of stuff from what you're carrying on your back, throwing it aside and just.... being able to relax like that. It's SO awesome! I really needed that!

Rested for half an hour there... sun kept shining brightly on and off.. a lil irritating, but who cares?!! I know it's a lil odd that I'm the only one lying down there at that time.. usually I see heaps of people doing that but because it was windy and it was early in the morning, I guess no one was there yet.

had to wake up and go for class zombinized! I didn't even know I slept in class, until I got a phone call, and frantically tried to off it when I noticed class started already. LOL! WAH! Eyes were too heavy, so I went back to sleep again. That went on for 1 hr. Then, I woke up for the 2nd hour of the class. Later, I attended tutes! Finally!! I haven't attended tutes for quite a while because of assignments. Then, there was supposed to be another class, but I was told that we didn't need to go for it, since it's not coming out for exam. I know it's kinda rude to skip lectures... but I really really needed rest. My body felt as if it was gonna disintergrate soon.

So I went back home, took my lunch at 4pm!!! Had a friend to chat for a while... and totally konged out at 5.30pm - 10pm. Woke up for 'dinner'. LOL! I got to watch 'Heroes' again T.T!!! So niceeeee... After that I went back to sleep at 2am - 11pm. LONG GLORIOUSS SleeeeppP!!!! I didn't wanna get out of bed for class at 12pm today.. but I had to.. last week of classes man! XD

Am excited that exams are coming.. and soon holidays!! Lecturers helped us to prepare for exams. I am soooo gonna prepare well this time. Starting tonight already :)Yey yey yey!

Well, some of my friends have their exams started next week.. ALL THE BEST peeps!!! XD Mine starts on the following week when most of them finished already. ONE week break for preparation next week. Yeah man!! :)

Common sense, "Where art thou?"

I 'stole'/cut 'n paste this post from my friend's blog. Thought it was really interesting :) Thanks Pui Fun for putting it up! Enjoy...

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My parents told me about Mr. Common Sense early in my life and told me I would do well to call on him when making decisions. It seems he was always around in my early years but less and less as time passed by.

Today I read his obituary. Please join me in a moment of silence in remembrance. For Common Sense has served us all so well for so many generations.

Obituary
Common Sense

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape.

He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as knowing when to come in out of the rain, why the early bird gets the worm, why life isn't always fair, and how, on occasion, maybe it was my fault.

Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you earn) and reliable parenting strategies (adults, not children are in charge).

His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a six-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.

Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job they themselves failed to do in disciplining their unruly children. It declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer aspirin, sun lotion or a sticky plaster to a student; but could not inform the parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.

Common Sense lost the will to live as the Ten Commandments became contraband; churches became businesses; and criminals received better treatment than their victims. Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar can sue you for assault.

Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement.

Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents, Truth and Trust; his wife, Discretion; his daughter, Responsibility; and his son, Reason. He is survived by three stepbrothers; I Know my Rights, Someone Else is to Blame, and I'm a Victim.

Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone. If you still remember him pass this on. If not, join the majority and do nothing.

Author unknown

Just a lil longer...

Lying in bed....

*thinking & feeling extremely lazy*

*smiling to myself as I was day dreaming*

"Can we skip tutesss plsssssssss???!!!!" both my friend and I plead to one another. LOL!!

Yes, we just woke up at... 11.30pm or was it 12pm.

Tutes was at 1pm...

*sigh* stupid classes... and yet still so much to do after that 2 papers last week >.<

When will it ever end?

At the end of the day, we didn't attend tutes 'cause we got ready late and all.. It'll be really embarrassing to just go into tutes class for just half and hour >.<

It was rather an unproductive day when I'm supposed to be working my ass off my assignments. Couldn't quite concentrate much... no motivation... feeling extra uncomfortable... tired all day... not that I look any extra energetic when anyone actually sees me around. That ol' energetic gal is just gone ya know... for now... The hyper one comes out past midnight. Not as often as she used to... Just once in a while. I am usually more productive then, compared to the day... yeah, night person.

Well... a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do... even if she has the monthly thing going on. Haihz.. they should declare hols for girls with mentrual. Losing blood makes a person really tired and unproductive, ya know. I really wonder how those with cramps get through the day? O_o LOL! Ok, I can't believe that I just blogged about this.

Okayyy moving along... So, 2 more papers right? and a long line of activities ahead of me after this.. So, I can't quite afford to extend or pass up late my assignments as well. Mon is the LAST!!! It should stick that way.. but my progress isn't much. So how? Speed up for these few days. Cram both assignments together? Yea, I'll do that... somehow, someway...

*Sigh*

I so wanna be home... Wanna see my family and my friends... Can't wait to just be stress-free all over again, with nothing much to bother me or worry. Then again, when I get back home, I would need to make my decision about next year >.< Well, that's life, isn't it?

Gonna work my butt off tonight, the whole of Fri and Sat. Can't afford to waste anymore time already... I don't care whether I can finish up my assignment on time.. but I care whether I do well in it. I care whether on whether the lecturer accepts my assignment. If they don't... then, I gotta pass up on time lor >.<

It'll be over soon.. and once it's over....

SHOPPING!!!!!!!! SPENDING TIME & CATCHING UP WITH MY BUDZ 'n FAV PEEPS!!!~

What else? Can daydream some more and plan what I can do when I go home... bwhahaha

Do all that before I have to work my butt off for exams... XP

I learnt that....

"the only person that can possibly really stop you from moving forward... is yourself"

"it is ok to give yourself time and space... don't rush it, don't force it"

"it is possible to reach your goal, if you just wait for the right time to obtain it"

"waiting is not all that bad.. the results of it, can be more rewarding than you've imagined or expected it to be"

"having it all doesn't mean that you'll gonna be satisfied in life. Actually, all you need is just ONE thing that would make you feel fulfilled and satisfied for the rest of your life"

"you don't need to see love as something tangible, to know that it is love"

"having to know that ONE person is walking with you through life, is way better than having heaps of people around you, but wouldn't walk along with you"

"it is never too late, to discover your dreams, to run after them and make them come true, as long as you're still living..."

"sometimes, you've just gotta take ONE step towards others, and they would draw near to you.. I know God does"

"words alone can be an encouragement... words with actions makes a difference... words that comes with a sincere heart and followed by actions, changes lives..."

Food for thought

God is not looking for those who are clever,
but for those in whom He can be wise.

He is not looking for those who are talented,
but for those in whom He can be all sufficient.

He is not looking for those who are powerful,
but for those through whom He can be almight.

M.I.A. - Missing In Action

Yes I've been M.I.A.ing for the whole week.. and gonna be for this whole week. Only one group of people saw me the whole week... even my housemates hardly saw me around. I've been staying over my friend's place to do assignment together-gether, support, go crazy, help and stress with each other. LOL! It's amazing when the whole house is doing assignment together... hahaha We're either super quiet or super noisy. At least u know got people you can do things together. If I wasn't with them, I think I wouldn't have eaten or sleep for the whole week. Who knows? If I were to stay at home on my own and do my work, I think my lunch would most often be - packet powder soup + boil water = soup 2 drink! and my dinner will be "IndoMee".. yes, those instant food stuff.. for the whole week or smtng. LOL! What time would I sleep, probably during funny times...

I would like to finally say that... IT IS FINISHED!!! but.. sigh... who am I kidding? I still have 2 more assignments and exams to go. Well, at least the BIG HARD once are off my chest. Those reports were crazy. Well.. one of it..

I sent in both my reports late. Consequences: deducted marks-la. However, somehow I feel more satisfied about this sem's reports... Not so stress like last sem.. I don't think I have better time management, but it's like a great success for me to actually be able to handle these assignments pretty alright. I managed to focus more and put aside distractions, other thoughts and emo-ness.. I am not so frantic about not finishing on time, but to do it the best I can, which I think I kinda did. What else? Hmm.. yeah..

Well, I can certainly say that things have been different now. The people I mix with, the things I do and the people I'm close to. It's amazing how things can change within a month or maybe just in 2 weeks. Yea... Well, things change, people change, I've changed too... Changes in my life now:

• Began to mix with different groups of people
• Caught up with those whom I haven't chatted for months
• A bit more focused now.. well have to la.. but, I don't stress myself so much like last time with unrealistic expectations anymore... if I just can't finish it on time, I accept that la.. late admission won't kill me. I learn not from the actual task, but other things that comes with it. Picking up things in which I learn from the things I do... that can become principles in life and can mold my attitude. Eg. Assignments = perseverance.
  
• No longer stressing about being 'perfect' anymore.. LOL! Seems like I learnt to accept myself and certain situations as it is now.
• Learnt to give myself time and space to grow. As much as I want certain things to be solved or done, NOW... everything just doesn't work that way.
  
• Learn to focus on the 'now' that is needed to be done, than worrying so much about the future, and leaving the past behind.

So yea :) those are the updates of my life.. as for now.

Listen

Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[CHORUS]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find
My own

You should have listened
There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed
Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

[CHORUS]

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't...

[CHORUS]


by Beyonce, Dreamgirls OST.

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Ever felt like you've never been heard?
I did.
Ever felt as if your desires and dreams got buried deep inside?
I did.
Ever followed the voices of others around you, and not the one that is in your heart?
I did.
Ever felt like you're walking in life all your own, eventhough you've got heaps of people around you?
I did.
Ever felt as if your desires have been pushed aside by others, and soon yourself?
I did.
Ever felt as if the person closest to you do not understand you or know how you feel?
I did.

Well.. realize this.. I answered with "I DID".. all past tense.
Now.. just like the song.. I'm moving on..

Interesting & Encouraging

Look back and thank God.
Look forward and trust God.
Look around and serve God.
Look within and find God!

I asked God, 'How do I get the best out of life?'
God said, 'Face your past without regrets. Handle your present with confidence. And prepare for the future without fear!

Without God, our week is: Mournday, Tearsday, Wasteday, Thirstday, Fightday, Shatterday and Sinday.

Wait

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried:
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, “Child, you must wait.”

“Wait? You say, wait!” my indignant reply.
“Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By Faith, I have asked, and am claiming your Word.

My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and YOU tell me to WAIT?
I’m needing a ‘yes’, a go-ahead sign,
Or even a ‘no’ to which I can resign.

And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
I’m weary of asking! I need a reply!”

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, “You must wait.”
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
And grumbled to God, “So, I’m waiting … for what?”

He seemed, then, to kneel, and His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.

All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want – But, you wouldn’t know Me.

You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint;
You’d not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there;
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me

When darkness and silence were all you could see.
You’d never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You’d know that I give and I save … (for a start),
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that’s beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.

You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that ‘My grace is sufficient for Thee.’
Yes, your dreams for your life overnight would come true,
But, Oh, the Loss! If I lost what I’m doing in you!

So, be silent, My child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And though oft’ may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still, “WAIT.”

taken from "Perspectives - a spiritual life guide for twenty somethings".
Author unknown

Stay in Uni

A group of 5 of us came together to discuss our Research Methods 2 report. We were panicking because we didn't exactly know what to do for it. It drove us nuts. So, we called in an expert! Thank God he managed to help us, or we'll be doomed!!!

I can't imagine how the others would be able to do it on their own or if they started later. It is crazy!!! That's why I dislike doing research work you see. Not my cup of tea.

We started meeting up 3.30pm (well, supposed to be 3.00pm la... but you know M'sian bad time management >.< my bad as well..) and just ended at 7.40pm. No.. we haven't like finished our report. We just got a better understanding on how to do one section of our report. This is only for one of our assignment (the hardest one la...). I have 2 assignments to pass up by this week. Hopefully I know what I'm doing.

Don't plan to attend my lectures cuz I'm rushing like crazy for these reports. 3 more weeks to go and we'll be free from assignments! Then, 2 weeks to study for exams. Yes.. it's crazy.

I really wonder.. are all Malaysian's alike? Because most of us don't have the motivation to actually start early for assignments (though we had like a 2 week study break previously!). Everyone is always doing last minute work... and it's our last year here.. well, last semester for me. Are M'sians (esp HELP students) out of their minds or Australian's face similar problems as us as well? hmm... I really wonder.

Well, it's great being here in uni, as we were able to do our work together with others. I definately wouldn't be able to do it on my own. I thank God for friends whom I can count on.. and people who are willing to help eventhough we may have just met. I guess we know that we can be comfortable with one another because we belong to the in-group of M'sians and previously HELP students (from the same college).

Hahaha well.. more work to be done now. Wish me all de best! 3 more weeks. Jia Yao and Gambatte to those who are struggling as well. You are not alone! XD

We will Dance

I've watched the sunrise in your eyes
And I've seen the tears fall like the rain
You've seen me fight so brave and strong
You've held my hand when I'm afraid

We've watched the seasons come and go
We'll see them come and go again
But in winter's chill, or summer's breeze
One thing will not be changin'

We will dance
When the sun is shining
In the pouring rain
We'll spin and we'll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze
Becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I'll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we will dance

Sometimes it's hard to hold you tight
Sometimes we feel so far apart
Sometimes we dance as one
And feel the beating of each others hearts

Some days the dance is slow and sweet
Some days we're bouncing off the walls
No matter how this world may turn
Our love will keep us from fallin'

And we will dance
When the sun is shining
In the pouring rain
We'll spin and we'll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze
Becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I'll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we will dance

The music will play
And I'll hold you close
And I won't let you go
Even when our steps
Grow weak and slow
Still I'll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we, will dance


by Steven Curtis Chapman

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The picture I got from this song is dancing with My Jesus & my future husband or life partner.
Both of you have been on my mind...
This song is dedicated to both of ya.

Dear God, thank You for holding my hand through it all. Thank You for guiding me and I know that You have been looking out for me. Thank You for all that You've done... and thank You for all that You're gonna do. Help me to trust that You'll provide me with my needs, desires and future. Things may not work the way I want it to be.. but Lord, let Your will be done instead of mine, because You have the bigger picture in mind and You know what is the best for me. Cont to show me your unfailing love, grace and mercy that You've poured out in my life... and the lives of others. As I cont to understand that, may I be the blessing to others for You and be the light You called us to be. Thank You for the dances we have each time I encounter You. May we cont to dance together to eternity.... Lotsa luv, your beloved daughter, Lizzie.

Dear future husband, I know that you'll be someone that is favorable in God's eyes. I know that you will love me with all your heart, guide and build me up in my walk with Him, one who would be patient and walk with me through the darkest valleys in my life. I know that you are waiting for me as well... and I will be waiting for you. Thank you for all that you've done (for God, me and others...) and gonna do... thank you for the happiness you'll bring into my life. I'll be waiting for the day whereby, we can dance together, in and out of our lives... and people will know and see that we are not by or on our own, but God is with us as well... holding both of us closely to His heart and protected under His arms... Lotsa luv, your future partner, Lizzie.

"If God ordains it, He will make a way"

Fingerprints of God

I can see the tears filling your eyes
And I know where they're coming from
They're coming from a heart that's broken in two
By what you don't see
The person in the mirror
Doesn't look like a magazine
Oh but when I look at you
It's clear to me

That I can see the fingerprints of God
When I look at you
I can see the fingerprints of God
And I know it's true
You're a masterpiece that all creation
Quietly applauds
And you're covered with
The fingerprints of God

Never has there been and never again
Will there be another you
Fashioned by God's hand and perfectly planned
To be just who you are
And what He's been creating
Since the first beat of your heart
Is a living, breathing
Priceless work of art

Just look at you
You're a wonder in the making
And God's not through
In fact, He's just getting started!


by Steven Curtis Chapman

Idealistic vs. realistic

I was talking to dad on MSN
About life just this evening
Dad says that I've a too idealistic mentality
that I need to be more realistic

Life is never sunshine or happy all the time
Friendships and relationships are never perfect
Getting a perfect job is hardly an option when you first begin
Be realistic… because you won’t survive without it

Fairy tales only happen in books and Disney movies
I look too far ahead and looked back too much
Why do I expect perfection when people are not perfect?
When I myself are not perfect...

Be realistic... this is my life. This is me.

So, Liz, deal with it!
Change what you can, and accept what you can't
Flaws, weaknesses, failures... whatever it is
You are still you, you just can't escape that

Know this truth, that God loves you
That no one can truly show you how much God loves you
Perhaps you’ll see a glimpse of it
Or they can only portray it for a period of time.

Remember, they are not God, and they are limited
They are allowed to make mistakes and be forgiven
They are humans, just as you are
So, don’t condemn them as you are not condemned

In your weakness, He can make it His strength.
In your flaws, you are able to relate with others.
In your failures, you know that you can't do it alone and you can do better.

Life is unfair, but God is fair.
Life is harsh, but God is loving.

All the idealistic mindset, I cast them away
I leave it in Your hands
I want to accept what is real
in this life and in who I am

I no longer wanna be afraid anymore
Of the every decision I have to make, that can lead to a mistake
I no longer wanna hide anymore
from God, others and myself

Accepting who I am and what is happening around me
is the hardest thing
Surrendering all my dreams and my idealistic mindset
breaks my heart

But hey, I've gotta wake up
I’ve gotta get up again and take one day at a time
Looking ahead, holding unto the hope
And promises He has for me.

Things don't just simply happen everyday
Only God can make it happen
and we could try to work it through our way

"Just do your best" that's what my dad said
In work, in life, in relationships...
in everything you gotta do or wanna do
Commit to Him and be true

Whatever happens, do not worry
let it be... and just know that
you've done all you can
And leave it.. all to Him.

A day of rest

I figured the best REST and productive resting period is when I...

• Read sermons I've missed, write them out & meditating on them.
• Listening to sermons on CDs or DVDs.
  
• Read inspirational articles about Christian women/role models (ENHANCE Christian Women's Magazine).
  
• Finally being able to read the books I was given to me/bought.
• Preparing for Bible Study beforehand.
• Discipline my body to sleep early & wake up early.
• Healthy & proper food with a balance of vegies and meat.
  
• Drinking lots of water - still can't achieve 7litres. So far achieved 1litre++?! Dat's how lil i drink.
  
• Stayin at home and just chill.
  
• Not staying online for too long helps to focus on other things more. So that life wouldn't just be bound to 'the net' or 'online chat'.
  
• Listening to light music.
  
• Watching just ONE movie max a day.
  
• Evening naps.
• Having a good, fun & meaningful convo with someone for a period of time (not the whole day or for too long).
• Reading inspiring blogs which lifts up your spirit.
• Blogging on experiences/what you've learned or sharing your joy.
• If you still have assignments, doing perhaps just part of it.. at least some part la. If u can manage your time properly to not do it for the day, even better. But don't la rush later until wanna die.. LOL!
  

I don't mean doing all these things in one day-la k.

It's when the day is slow-going and you don't have to worry about anything else. Doing things at your own pace, without needing to rush. A time for yourself to just reflect and finding ways to build yourself on your lil own time. Not exerting too much energy on the things you do.

Now, I am not so afraid of doing things on my own or having to just spend the day on my own :)
It's ok to be alone.. and you'll need time to recharged and be refreshed from everything else. Doing things that refreshes you physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually during your 'rest day', really helps and it is crucial. It helped me.

I guess that's the beauty of Sabbath day that God has ordained for us. We are rested in every way we can and in Him.. and we still can grow while we are rest. However, we are caught up with doing so many things each and everyday that we forget the importance of rest in our lives. Your body needs it.. your soul & spirit needs it.. God wants you to do so as well.

So take a day off, on the weekend... and just be refresh yourself, by Him and be refreshed for the rest of the week after that.

Oh oh before I forget, the measures you take to physically refresh your body have to be consistent... if not, you'll soon grow tired and weary again.

Hold Unto Your Dreams

Keep all your dreams so close to your heart,
and never give up, when your life's falling apart.
Let your dreams give you strength to carry on,
and help you find the future, you feel has gone.

Build on those dreams that you hold so dearly,
and you'll be able to see, your life more clearly.
These are your tomorrows you can make today,
and through the darkness, you'll find your way.

Nothing is impossible, as long as you believe;
those felt unreachable are possible to achieve.
Have faith in yourself and trust in God's love;
reach for the stars blessed by Heaven above.

by Alfred & Deb