Humor for students...

Students' Psalm

The Lord is my sheperd, I shall not flunk;
He keepeth me from lying down when I should be studying.
He leadeth me beside the cooler water for a study break;
He restores my faith in study guides.
He lead's me better study grades;
For my grade's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of borderline grades
I will not have nervous breakdown
for thou art with me;
My prayers and their friends, they comfort me.
Thou givest me answers in moments of blankness;
Thou anoints my head with understanding.
My test paper runneth with questions I recognise
Surely passing grades and flying colours will follow me.
All the days of examinations,
And I shall not have to dwell in college
Forever!

Amen.


I Could Study This Notes Forever

Over DOTA and my studies
The study notes are piling on me
And when I open up my heart
I need the need for killing spree.

I could study these notes, forever (x4)

Oh, I feel like studying
It's foolishness I know
But when the student's have seen the light
They will study with joy,
Like we're studying now...

Adapted by "I could sing of Your love forever"
Written by Lemuel Low

Life goes on...

Like my friend always say..

"Life is like a round ball" by Joshua San

You got that right, bro!

Waiting for a miracle...

I just rededicated my life last Sunday in ACTS church. It was wierd.. I didn't see myself as backslided Christian or anything.. Perhaps, I didn't wanna admit or didn't wanna acknowledge it. Don't get me wrong. It's not that I don't believe in God and Jesus as my Savior or stop having that faith. But I know that I needed something more in life than what I am currently living. I lost the joy in doing the things in my ministry, in studies and seem like almost everything.. life itself. The life inside of me was like... DEAD. Get what I mean?

I need to be excited in my faith, once again. To be excited to want to truly know Him. I lost all those desires. I kinda lost hope in myself in other sense. Perhaps, I stop trusting that He could do anything for me, since I do not seem to be doing anything for myself. Things always seem to be the same... you have that fire in ya burning so passionately and brightly one day, and the next thing you know it's gone. I don't want that in my life anymore. So, tired of going through the same routine.

I need to have more in my life than just a flickering fire within me. I need to have more than what I think there is out there. I need more hope in my life. I need the JOY in me once again. I need a CHANGE in my life... People say, they can see change in themselves and others can see it to when they have Christ in them and they can see Holy Spirit in work. I want that!!! I want to see a change in my perspective, in my heart to desire & be commited to Him and a change in my behavior to be a better person.

I need to believe for myself that there is still hope, that I once used to believe.
I need to know that I am His precious child, that He still loves me & hears my cry.

I waiting for a miracle in my life... I want more than what I am at now...
There's gotta be more in life & a meaning to live.

"God, please send a miracle, open my eyes, ears & heart & help me believe"

Grounded...

Whoa... I haven't been grounded for quiet some time. I remembered that my parents gave me the freedom to choose after I graduated from secondary school because they said I am old enough to make my own judgement & decisions.

Guess what.. I am grounded again! Woohooo! *I know, I'm nuts*

Why am I grounded?

• 'Cuz I handed in my assignment paper last minute (though it was on time)
• 'Cuz I am always late and I never seem to learn from my lesson
• Dad is just waiting for my cell phone bill to get me caught & teach me a lesson

I hope these are the only reasons...

What am I grounded for?

• No friends allowed to come to my place
• Can't go out except for college & CG

How long?

• These two weeks.
  
• Good for me anyway, cuz I am bombarded by assignments & I have exams next week.
• Makes no difference to me. I kinda thank God also! Help me control myself & be more discipline..

Am not complaining...

Different personalities?

My family view me as...
- most irresponsible person
- most worried by them
- spends the most money
- lazy
- indiscipline
- not commited/sensitive enough to home affairs
- always late/last minute
- never learns from one's mistake
- unrealible
- very dependent on them & others


What people view me as...
- Coorperative
- to some people, always on time (transportation)
- committed in work
- hardworking (when they happen to see me do work)
- reliable
- servanthood heart (oh boy... that's where I try to take up every responsiblity I can. Why?)


What I view myself...
- I do not like to spend too much

• but i don't know why my hp bill is increadibly freaking high every month
• Not much of a shopper (only go shopping like 3 times a year or smtng...)
• Probably spend a lot of food
  

- ok.. I am tardy..

• 'cuz there is no reason for me to be early for class
• why? cuz i do not learn anything from there! (wish I can tell my parents that...)
• dread going for class & have to wake up early for useless class

- last minute-ness..

• I thought it was considered better than last time edi

- I can be independant. I really can!

• Went lunch on my own several times before
• At times, I walk ahead of others on my own (does that count?)
• Because I was percieved as dependant, I like to be on my own in college (underlying issue on why I am less sociable there)
• Is that why I try to pick up leadership role in coll (at times) & always eager to serve in ministries? Oh gosh... (something I have to question myself)
  

- I am somewhat irresponsible/unrealible because I forget at times!!!

• That's why, I always ask my friends to remind me, if I need to do something important for them.
• Also, I am considered someone willing to do everything and serve... why? I think I just realized the answer
• I didn't like to be irresponsible, therefore, I try to take up every responsibilities I can in other places (underlying cause... unconcious manifest into conciousness)
  
• By taking up many responsibilities outside, i became less involved at home and even less responsible
  

- I do not need people to be worried about me.

• I am 19 and a half years old, for goodness sake.

- It's not that I don't want to learn from mistakes.

• Think, I don't think about it almost everyday????!!!
• Want me to have another car accident to make me realize & change ah?
• I guess, I just don't think of it enough and put it as a priority to fix all these probs in the first place *sigh*

Note to Liz: CLEAN UP THE MESS IN YOUR LIFE!!!!

Liz: okay... not like I have much of a choice...

Stress-nesss!!!!!

Wahhhh!!! Wanna cry lerrr... feel like running around the field 10 times to relief my stress.. or shouting on top of a mountain. Wahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okie... enough of "wah"-ing. Let's see what do I have to do

12/3 Today : Mock Presentation for Sat & Sociology Quiz (which i haven't studied)
14/3 Fri: Sociology Presentation
15/3 Sat: Research Colloqiuom Presentation
17/3 Mon: Special Project Paper on the "Special Kid's" weekly visit in Ampang
18/3 Fri: Research Paper for Research Methods
Research Paper for Sociology
Peranakan Paper: Food (Meat, Poultry's...)

Week after.... End term from Monday 24th to Wednesday 26th April 2006.

Oh man, I can't wait for all these to be over!!!

Stained Glass Masquerade

Is there anyone that fails?
Is there anyone that falls?
I am the only one in church today
Feeling so small

'Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that i see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiney plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pains
But if the invitation's open
That every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only who's traded
In the alter for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

by Casting Crowns