Process of Recovery & Thoughts on Aus

Yey! I am recovering :) Still in the process of it but I do feel much better now. Thanks to the peeps who has been encouraging me via cyber-world/smses, "drink more water, sleep earlier ah, remember take your med..etc etc"

As you all know, I'll be flying off to Aussie-land to do my 3rd year really soon - in 2 mths time.
Frankly, I am quite worried. I kinda look forward to it.. just a tiny bit actually. I fear not knowing what my future would be like there. Sure I have friends who are already there & even made new friends there thru' friendster/mail. However, I still feel insecure about the whole new environment, staying on my own, new uni & peeps there.

Like I've said, I have a few friends (whether close a not) there already. I've been reading one of their blogs and it really encouraged me. He really enjoys himself there! Even another friend that came back from Aus & we chatted a bit, he told me that he LOVED the place! Now, why would I be so surprised?

"Wow!" I thought to myself. Would I be able to adapt that well when I get there? What I know for sure is, I ain't prepared for this trip. I don't know how to prepare myself because I don't really know what to expect! >_< I hope that I'm not freaking myself out while typing this.

I am & will be sad to leave my friends & family behind. I am however excited that I would be able to gain new experiences, meet new people & perhaps move on in my life there. I don't know how much I'll like that place. I don't know how much I'll hate it because it'll be so different than M'sia.

I guess all I'll know is that... God will lead me through this. He will be holding my hands as we walk through this... On the condition that, I would hold His hands & walk with Him as well.

Feeling horribly sick

*sobz*

Getting sore throat was bad enough. Getting sore throat with phlegm & when your ears is kinda involved too.. cough too ARGH!!!

I just don't feel so good.. When I woke up this evening from my "nap", my head feels horrible. Dizziness! Sore throat got worst & all connected to my nose, ears & headdd. I hope this would be over in a day!!!

Nnnoooooooooo~ Can't talk straight & I hv a feeling it got to my eyes too.. I tear when I cough. PAIN!!! Coughing is painful! Sneezing is painful too! HELPPP!!!!!

One Of My Passions

Firstly, today I had fun hanging out with me ex-CG members / PreU gang. It's pretty cool. So glad for those who came back from Aussie already!

Anyway, today in FLARE I really enjoyed myself. I get to sing!!!! I not only get to sing, I get to harmonize! XD I like. I feel that when I sing, I am able to express myself more and do it whole heartedly. Better than playing keyboard me think. I really enjoy singing.. and at times, dancing too.

I still remembered that when I was in early secondary school, one of my passion was to sing. I wanted to be like Darlene Zschech from Hillsong. LoL! I remembered very well that I wanted to be a worship leader but my voice wasn't loud enough. I used to be able to compose songs, but now I don't know whether the gift is taken away since I suppressed that gift (cuz of intimidation) or didn't practice my gift.

I'm glad that I am still able to sing. When I sing now, I try harmonize because most of the time, I can't reach the melody.. either too high or too low for my voice to reach. So, I try to use my talking voice to sing. Comes out clearer & louder. Also, I get to be creative! :) I like!

So yeah.. I'm glad because I got to sing today & was reminded of my passion for singing I had once. I wish to invest in singing skills and other skill that I have, esp my passion in music.

Aches

I sure am getting old.

I remembered just a few weeks ago, I went for morning walk in Kiara Park in TTDI, next day, my feet hurts for a day or 2.

Just yesterday (Sat morning), my feet & back hurts as a result of jumping in 'United Concert' while I praised & worship God.

That same morning, I gave tambourine lessons to dancers in my cousin's church. After 3 hours of lessons, the pain spreaded. There were a lot of jumping & turning involved. Anything to do with footwork-la. LOL!

This morning, I felt as if I can't move my whole body. My back around my shoulder area, hurts. When I was half awake, half asleep (half conscious), I felt that my legs muscle pulling a few times, as if I strained it during sleep. *OUCH* painful! Yet, I can't really wake up because I was still half asleep!!!!!

I couldn't wake up for long in the morning. No energy to move much because of the pain as well in the morning. Skipped meeting because of the pain. Didn't feel well because of it either. I ended up waking up at 10am++ den sleep back at 11am++ till 1pm++.

I was also kinda limping the whole day. It still hurts now >_<

I either need to exercise more.. or never do any heavy activities/sports anymore to avoid anymore pains like these.

I think I'll choose to exercise more!

Finally, new layout!

Yey! Finally new layout and background. Kinda like this one.
This isn't exactly what I thought of, but better than the previous boring background.
Such a turn off whenever I visit my own blog. I needed some color in my blog!
I still can't find what I wanted or something that shouts out my passion.
I wanted a graphic, a blog that kinda portrays who I am or smtng.

Anyway, thanks to the peeps who were willing to help, whether you could or couldn't at the end. Also, those who helped me find some great layouts & gave me opinions.
Thanks also to another friend who sacrificed some time to look into my blog & gave me pointers on html codes (eg. changing font color & size).
Oh... not to forget, a bro who downloaded a programme into my comp to make web-making easier!!! Though I am still blur blur on how to use the prog, it's okie.. will find ya for pointers.

You know who you are ler ;) Thanks so much for helping me make it happen!

Got Tagged

Part 1: On the Outside
Name: Elizabeth Hie
Birth Date: 12 December 1986
Current status: Single
Eye Color: Dark brownish
Hair Color: Black & Dark Brownish
Righty or Left: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Saggitarius

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage: Chinese, Hakka, Cantonese, Quater blood Indonesian.
Your Fear: Rejection - Ppl close to me who shuts me away, Unknown future, Living w/o passion & purpose.
Your Weaknesses: Discipline, Self-Control (eg. eczema), Paranoia, Too Dependent on others.
Your Perfect Pizza: Pepperoni/Seafood Delight... cheese in the crust!

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: "What time is it now?"
Your bedtime: 3 a.m.
Your most missed memory: My childhood with family, school/uni friends rox & someone special I had in my life

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Erm.. not much difference.. Pepsi me think.
McD or Burger King: Quite jelak of McD, yet Burger King I always eat the same burger.
Single or Group Dates: Group for starters perhaps, single later. Depends...
Adidas or Nike: Nike.
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Erm, I can't remember how both looks like.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla.
Cappucino or Coffee: Cappucino. Can't drink too much of both.. can get headache & nausea.

Part 5: Do You...
Smoke: Nope. Really dislike it when ppl smoke around me. Hard to breathe & my hair will suffer the consequences too.. it smells bad.
Curse: When I am really frust, in my mind I prob did, but I try to control it. It gets harder each day.

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: Yes. Wine, Tequilla & Vodka.
Gone to the mall: Of Course... O-o Shopped a lot recently. Gonna shop again soon!
Been on stage: Yepz... Worship keyboardist.. Used to dance.
Eaten sushi: Oh boy! SHOGAN rox!
Dyed your hair: Not yet. Will highlight before I leave to Aus. Woohoo!

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: EeewW! Don't wanna see anyone stripping *cover my eyes* & no way I'll do it.
Changed who you were to fit in: Yeah, it's called peer pressure! I'm sure many ppl did! Also, I'm sure we were looking for our identity.

Part 8: Marriage
Age you're hoping to be married: 25,26 would be ideal... 27 max.

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye Color: Doesn't really matter. I'll love him anyway!
Hair Color: Doesn't really matter. I'll love him anyway!
Short or Long Hair: Preferbly, short, but not too short.

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago: Typing this tagged thingie.
1 hour ago: Watching TV & Chattinz online.
4.5 hours ago: Just got up from bed! (12.30pm)
1 month ago: Working.
1 year ago: Studying! I miss studying & my college mates!

Part 11: Finish The Sentence
I love: Trying to.. love my God more... my family, my friends!
I feel: Really really bored...
I hate: Lust, Devil.
I hide: What I think ppl can't accept about me.. darkest secrets?
I miss: My friends!!!!
I need: God, my family & friends. A boyfriend would be nice! LOL!

Part 12: Tag 5 People
YOU....who ever is reading this
Anyone who has a blog???
Anyone who is bored and would do this for fun! LOL
Jason Teo (my lil kid big bro.. LOL!)
Dexter

Quizzes for fun!

I was reading my friends' blogs and stumbled upon a few quizzes in one of their blogs.
Interesting.. and since I was bored, I did the quizzes & did more & more.
I used to do this when I was stress or when I wanted to collect anime pics.

Well here are the quizzes I did and the answers I got.

Pieces of Me by Ashlee Simpson

"Fall, with you I fall so fast I can hardly catch my breath I hope it lasts" In 2004 you fell in love. Let's hope it lasts.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

Well.. hehe.. 2 years ago... Just seem so LONG ago. I just started First Year college then. Well, didn't exactly get my prince charming. LOL!

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations. You're open to new people and friends, which makes you a pretty popular person. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

I would say I live quite a reckless & messy life. I did had big dreams.. My best bud reminded me about the dreams I used to have. Another friend pointed out that he can see that I have/had BIG DREAMS, but those dreams were buried because I was afraid and lack of self confidence perhaps. I kept telling myself I couldn't. He encouraged me to change my mindset about the dreams I had and to believe in myself.

You Should Be a Dancer

You have a unique combination of grace and athleticism.. Whether you become a salsa dancer or a ballerina, you need to get dancing!

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

Yeah man! I love dancing. Would love to learn different kinda dances! Eg. Jazz, Contemporary, Hip Hop, Ballroom etc... Just having difficulty really expressing myself thru' dance.

Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Feeling

You are: Tolerant, flexible, and open to new ideas. A stickler for integrity and authenticity. Passionate about causes, beliefs, or politics. Likely to have many "best friends" from many walks of life

What's Your Personality Cluster?

Your Sloth Quotient: 60%

You're definitely lazier than the average person, but you're able to live a somewhat normal life. All your life needs is a little more effort and variety, and you might see that doing hard things is actually fun!

How Much Sloth Do You Have?

Just 60%??? I thought it'll be like 80%+. How disappointing? O-o

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Blog Should Be Blue

Your blog is a peaceful, calming force in the blogosphere. You tend to avoid conflict - you're more likely to share than rant. From your social causes to cute pet photos, your life is a (mostly) open book.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

Guess what? Ze background I chose (if I decide to actually use it) is blue + white.

SmallVille fanatic

I can't believe I did this.. But I did it!!!

I was watching SmallVille Season 5 from 2am - 5am.
Slept and woke up at 12pm, watched again from then until 11.20pm.

5 discs, each disc has bout 3-4 episodes...

You can imagined how long and how many episodes I've actually watched in a day.

Man.. I am seriously throwing my life away if I keep doing this.
Not only that, I am spoiling my eyes.
It became a lil blurry... and I just changed my specs a month ago.

Current song - "Strong Enough"

Playing this song currently on my blog.
If you want to hear it, turn on your speakers...

Strong Enough

As I rest against this cold hard wall, will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find that the road has just began.

Chorus:
Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance of me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

Will my weakness far from now
Make me suffer for a lifetime
If I feel renewed and find forgiveness
And find strength I've never had
Will my scares forever ruin all God's plan?

Bridge:
He took my life into His hands and turn it all around
In my most desperate circumstance
It's there I finally found...

Last Chorus:
That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out, and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me
Oh thank You for the chance to start again


by Stacie Orrico


"Lord, help me to trust You. Help me to understand that You are strong enough.. Stronger than I am... and indeed I need Your strength to live each day." -The cry of my heart, liz-

Bro Psycho Analyzed me

My bro tried to psycho analyze me.. it was pretty funny.


Bro: I know why you don't like to stay at home and always go out edi!
Me: Erm... why ah?
Bro: 'Cuz right, mum & dad always think you very useless doing housework at home. But, when you are out with your friends, they adore you.
Me: LOL!

Later he tried to explaine a lil more...
This is what he meant...

"At home, you can't help in most of the things, whereas when you are out, you tend to be able to help more. Therefore, you are needed there more. That's why you prefer be out there than at home" - or smtng like dat-

or

my interpretation...
"others have more confidence in you when you handle things and responsibilities compared to what you get at home. As a result, others seem to need you more compared to our parents or you feel as if you're needed outside more than at home"


It's kinda funny...
Anywayz, I have many reasons why I often go out and hardly stay at home.
This convo above perhaps was one of the reasons.

The Golden Facts of Life

"When someone loves us, we don't REALIZE it.
When we realize it, it's TOO LATE.
We always love the one who LEAVES us
and LEAVE the ones who LOVES us."

Taken from an SMS my bro in Christ sent to me. Miss ya, bro!


Ironic isn't it?

Working Hours Over!

Yey! Ended my contract last Tues (2days ago). WoohooO! :)
Can't believe I worked for 6 months. But it's good.. :D
Wonder whether my colleagues miss me and my "siu-bak-ness" (That's what they nicknamed me) *haha*

Hmm.. think I really need help with this web's background & design.
I tried doing it myself. Got a sample from the web and tested it on another blog. It didn't work! >_<>
HELLLPPPP~ Any web-whiz around? Please help me :)

I have been and gonna be busy though I've just started my hols.
Let me see what I have to do... Mum already gave me some chores to do at home..

1. Cooking
2. Washing my own clothes
3. Marketing - for food! (soon)
4. Admin work (for my dad's treasure hunt event)
5. Driving (dad asked me to drive him to Hartamas today)
   

This is gonna get interesting.

Oh oh... today my toilet bowl got clogged up...
So, I had my first experience of eermm pumping the stuff out of the toilet bowl.
Interesting and >_<.. nvm.
Erm... please don't try to imagine *eewww* I feel disgusted too.
Maybe I shouldn't have mentioned it. Oh well.. Lolz!

Also, it was my second time pumping petrol today!
First time was fuzzy as my friend helped me.
It has been a month or so, since I pumped too, so I can't remember!
I should have read "Pumping petrol into car for dummies" or smtng.
I was damn blur. Turn the cap to open also tak boleh.
Talking about being blur, parking meter.. when I put in the coins, I forgot that I needed to key in my car number O-o *shucks* Lord, please help me!

Now you know how princess I am. Simple things also dunno how to do. Aih!
It's okay. I'm learning and will still be learning. Gonna prepare and equipped for next year!

Power Color

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's Your Power Color?

This.. is amazing! Lol. Just wow... It's like reading my inner thoughts or something.

I'm amazed with the results produced. Not in a sarcastic way, i mind you.

Just that it seems pretty much true.

Left brained or right brained?

You Are 25% Left Brained, 75% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?.

This I'm not too sure. What do you think???