Abandon it all

- frustrations
- disappointments
- hurts & pains
- anger & un-forgiveness
- fears
- feelings (emotions & emotionlessness)
- past, present & future
- partner-to-be
- desires, wish, hopes
- dreams, visions & prophesies
- thoughts, conduct/behavior
- unwillingness
- stubbornness
- pride
- focus
- studies (assignments & exams; semester)
- weaknesses & strengths
- securities
- impatience
- own ways
- Just myself...

Don't wanna worry anymore... don't wanna ruminate anymore.. don't wanna dwell in it anymore... don't even wanna think anymore...

Am tired... drained out... too full of myself.
I can't keep living on my own like this...


Bits of songs in my head...

I Surrender All hymn sang by Brian Littrell

"Lord, I give to You, all I ever had
And everything I was, and everything I am
And now I’m laying it down, laying at Your feet
To Your grace, to Your bow
I surrender all

Lord, I give myself to Thee
Fill me with Thy love and power
Let Thy blessing fall on me

I surrender all, I surrender all
All to Thee my blessed Saviour
I surrender all"

"Help me to truly surrender FREELY!"
I've been doing it obligingly and still clinging to those things I wanna surrender. Who ever taught you to take back whatever you've given away already?


Over my head by Brian Littrell

"...I've been holding on
Now I'm letting go, just letting go
Gonna let Your love carry me away..."

Let me not carry these things upon my shoulders on my own and take these things into my own hands... Let me abandon, leave those things in Your hands, and allow me to hold unto Your love


Lead me to the cross by Brooke Fraser (Hillsong United)

"Lead me to the cross
where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
O lead me... lead me to the cross"


Clinging to the cross by Tim Hughes & Brooke Fraser

"My soul is weak, my heart is numb
I cannot seem but still my hope is found in You.
I hold on tightly, You will never let me go,
For Jesus You will never fail,
Jesus You will never fail.

Simply to the cross I cling
Letting go of all earthly things
I'm clinging to the cross
Mercy found a way for me
Hope is here as I am free
Jesus You are all I need
I'm clinging to the cross"


Why is it so damn hard to just abandon it all?