Close call

Lizzie, you clumsy, careless gal *sigh*

I was driving out of the parking lot after putting in the tix to come out of it ze place.

Low and behold, when I came out, I almost fail to see the car coming from the upper level, at my right. Thank God for drivers which actually slow down when they come down the slopes. Who knows? Malaysian drivers are crazy, such as myself.

I wanted to hit the brakes when I saw the car coming. Unfortunately, I fail to tell which was the brakes. Therefore, I hit the accelorator instead and I hit it quite hard, thinking it was the brakes. I guess it was a result of panic and perhaps, also because I lifted my leg when I wanted to hit the brakes.. who knows, maybe also because my right shoe were loose as well *hit my head*

Imagine the shock I gave my passengers and myself. Instead of stopping, I was moving forward fast. So, I quickly let go of the accelerator. Shouted my lungs out! I gave myself a heart attack. Was soooo scared. Again, thank God the car wasn't moving too fast and could hit his brakes. It would have crashed my side >_< *lizzie oh lizzie*

I was traumatized by the incident. Man oh man... I am punishing myself by not driving for 2 weeks (or at least try not to.. unless it's really important). Thinking about the incident makes me feel all tingly and scared inside. Heart will pump a lil faster than usual. Physiological reaction, I must say.

I was thinking about it and wondered if I were to 'die' then... my friend said I couldn't have had a bad accident ler cuz the other car's speed wasn't that fast, but I was thinking, if I was sent to heaven now... How am I gonna face God??? I am not ready!!!! I know, heaven is a wonderful place and all. But, I know it's not my call yet. I somehow know that I haven't fulfilled my destiny yet and His will upon me. I don't know how to explain to God the certain things that I've done in my life, that I chose to do. Also, I haven't been really close or talk to Him lately. I was afraid to stand before Him, not knowing what to say... and it'll be too late...

This got me thinking about the life I should be living... Sometimes, we all forget about the life we ought to live. There's always this small whisper in our ears "It's ok. There's still time". What if... time is not at your side anymore. You really don't know when you'll be taken away, do you? and how long? It is a scary thought.

God could have taken me away long ago, to be united with Him, when I was an infant. I had so many health problems then till my childhood years. So many near-death experiences but I was saved so many times. Is this just luck? Are those just coincidences? I don't think so. Think there is something more to all these. There's more to my life than I can ever imagine. There's more to life itself and certain things, I am not in control.

I urge you all to think about the life you're living. Are you happy? Will you be ready when your time is up? Will you be proud of the way you lived your life? Will you regret? Will you be able to face the Almighty for all the things you have done and He will hold accountable for? Do you believe in heaven? Are you living it out for what or who you believe in?

Why not think about it now.. before you are really gone.