Vday

Blessed Valentine’s everyone!
I heard it's known as "Single Awareness Day -SAD- from HITZ FM too!!! *LOL!*

I remembered when I was in secondary school, we’ll be buying gifts for our friends from “Leo Club” / “Interact Club”. I used to receive quite a number of things from my friends & of course, I would send my friends gifts too. Those were secondary school days. We showed our appreciation of our friendship to one another through gifts we bought / made for them. Also, the gift could be a hint to the opposite sex that “I am interested in you”.

I love spending time with my friends during this time as well because we celebrate our friendship or some of us, celebrate our single-hood. It’s nice to celebrate together as a group of friends, it was always fun. We would never feel left out though we see couples around us because we have each other! We do not have to do anything elaborate. We just go out for a meal, talk/crap & laugh with one another. Isn’t that great?

I also have memories of that special guy I once had in my life. I remembered his hard work + effort for the things he has made for me – photo frame with bible verses & photoshop-ed pictures he created of the stars & universe. He gave me a rose made out of paper as well! Amazing! *I'm impressed* These things are simple yet sweet & meaningful. The memories of us spending time with one another whether it was just dinner at a not-too-expensive place (which is totally fine with me) or just watching a simple movie together… Those were one of my glorious days as well.

This year in Aussie-land, I spent my day at home, alone. My housemates were out working in the afternoon. They came back & went out for dinner with their boyfriends. One came back with flowers in her hands, the other with a box of cake or smtng. *Sweet-ness!!!* They are out ber-dating tonite. Awwww... I slightly envy them. My close friends (the ppl I stick with here) had other plans. For some reason, I can’t even talk to my friends back home online because something is wrong with the net earlier on. So I was like totally alone! At least now got net, so not too bad.

However, perhaps I should thank God for that. I’ve been living my life with people around me all the time… or most of the time at least. Everyday seemed to be a rush for me because I would have different schedules/appointments. I would always have something to do / attend to. I would spend most of the time with my friends or others, that I don’t know how to spend time with myself & it becomes more difficult for me to spend time alone with God as well.

So today, I got the time to slow things down. I had a good rest last night till late this morning. I would have time to organize my thoughts. I’m given time to plan for my essential things such as cooking, grocery shopping etc. Also, I’ll be able to have time to spend with God alone, which I really struggle with... That was my challenge to me last nite, when I was talking to my friend as I was telling her, this is my first Vday alone. I got to slow things down & rest physically, mentally, emotionally & hopefully spiritually as well.

I have to admit, it feels kinda bored + a tiny pinch of “ouch!” deep inside because I have no one beside me (friends & esp. bf *I don't hv any guy to sweep me off my feet today*). But hey, look at the bright side, I am learning to have a lil of ‘me’ time which I didn’t often get when I was in M’sia & with God. I would have lots of ‘me’ time in days to come, believe me but I know that God will help me through & teach me on what I can do as I reflect & communicate with Him. I pray that I’ll be able to use my time wisely. That even if I spend time alone, it wouldn’t be wasted by zoning out / stoning, which I am capable of doing so. Lizzie needs to learn to be alone.

This message was stirred up within me to serve as a reminder for myself… perhaps, it may speak to you gals or even guys as well, I don't know. But it is a message of hope for the singles out there...

“Blessed Valentines, Lizzie. Though you are alone now, in the future, when the right time comes with the right person, that someone dear & special to you would be able to tell you how much he appreciates & loves you as well as celebrate the joy of having you in his life & you having him in your life. The greatest joy would be when God is in the centre of this relationship & His Holy Spirit is active in both lives. Also, when family & friends are not excluded from the relationship, because they will celebrate together with you. Don’t have to keep consciously looking or putting so much effort to make things happen, just wait… he’ll come when you least expect it.”