Letting go of the underlying causes

Ever watched closely your own actions & wondered why do you do the things you do? Or whether you've done it rightly or whether the motive of doing things is right? I seem to be more aware of my own conduct now as I reflect each day... whether what I'm doing is alright or not & why so? Even when I do think I have a problem or bad habit, I will try to look for the underlying reason to it. This applies even to my own habit of sleeping late... and yes, even that, I've found the reason to it...

Now, what do you do with these reflections? Sometimes you'd discover your underlying source but not so willing to let it go yet. I mean, why would people want to hang unto something that isn't good, unless they have learned to adapt to it, they are just so used to it that it's part of their life already or they are afraid of missing something "good" from it.. or maybe the "good" is just a 'feel good' factor... hhmm does that make sense?

This conversation captured my attention. Perhaps, it explains better to what I mentioned just now.. This is what Dr Wilson said to House (House, Season 2, epi 11), "You don't like yourself, but you do admire yourself. It's all you've got, so, you cling to it. You're so afraid that if you change, you'll lose what makes you special. Being miserable doesn't make you better than anyone else. It just makes you miserable!"

Wow! That was like a 'bullseye' on all sides of the egos deep down an individual.. I somehow can relate to what Dr Wilson said. If not, why would it hit me on own face as well, when I was watching it, rite?