Can't stand myself! MakeOVER needed

I know, it has been a while since I've updated my blog. Assignments have been driving me nuts!!! *I wish I can be alergic to assignments as I am allergic to peanuts or groundnuts* I can't believe it's already November! Dear, oh dear, time sure passes by really fast. Next thing I know, I have grandkids running around me and jumping on my lap, asking me to tell them a story >_<>

I've been a zombie last few days trying to finish up my assignments. I am really surprised that I have not fall seriously ill yet. Usually, I am the weakest in my family, in term of health. This is a result of being overly active (always going out because of meetings, practices, etc etc..)- not enough rest for the body & my terrible lifestyle- sleeping extremely late, eating irregularly (sometimes eat too much & other times, skip meals), also not really responsible with my work- all the "last minutes" in the world! I guess that define my life. They say it's a typical student's life. I am surprised though, to find that many of my friends fall sick more often than I do, this year.

I realize that I can't live like any longer. It's ruining my life. I don't want to live a slacking life... known as the lazy, irresponsible girl, undependable person... Heck, my younger brother is more responsible & dependable than I am. I even get scolded by him often. Would you believe it if I told you that he taught me how to save money early this year? Yep, he did. How am I gonna do my best or put in my best if I live this way? How am I gonna live a life of virtue, aiming to live a life of excellence (the best that I can be), if I don't change my lifestyle? I am too comfortable with where I am... yet overly burdened with all these nonsense. *sheesh* and they say, the oldest in the family are usually the independant, responsible one. So, not!

Hmmm... I so want to have a 'makeover'. No, not the dressing. I think the way I dress is good enough (as long as I am comfortable - though my friends did say that I don't really have much fashion sense >_< & some of my clothes make me look aunty *hehehe* dat's kinda funny ^_^). No, not the make-up, makeover. Makes me all concious & I'm sure many would agree that natural beauty is the best ya! =P As much as I would love to highlight my hair purplish-red or staightened it, the cost will kill me. The "MAKEOVER" I am talking about is the way I carry myself... the way, I organize my thoughts, the way I live my life... My life needs straightening up. I so so so need discipline.

I realize now, why discipline is so important. Never quite understood why last time. I am always craving for freedom, for some reason. Not that I do not have it... I do, really.. but I wish that I could have more.. But I know if I got my hands with too much freedom, I'll go outta control. I can be a hyperly active and *WILD* kid, for those who really know me (I think I hear some of my friends snickering & laughing at me). I know quite well that I am capable of abusing my freedom. Now the phrase make more sense to me. With great power, comes great responsibility as well *Spidey's phrase* This includes the power of freedom. Seem contradicting, huh?

Yepz. I hope that I can start the makeover after my sem ends. Need some time to think about my life.. reflect on it.. I don't wanna regret during the last minute of my life, on my deathbed. I wanna look back and tell myself, tell God and the peeps aroud me, I lived a life that I can be proud of.