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Sunday, April 20, 2008

New pics of my place~

I thought I'll show ya the neater version of my room :)

Welcome in!

My bed, my piggy.. triple blankets :P


There you go, a better pic!


There's the heater... cuz it gets pretty cold at night. And that is my neat book shelves.


Beside, it is my clothes closet. Yea, that's a sleeping robe hanging, so keep myself extra warm during winter.


That's my new printer and my working table. Very neat, huh? *so proud of myself* :) Ok ok, thanks to mum who keeps it neat and tidy!


Take a closer look!


That's my cupboard drawers. So much neater hoh, compared to my last photo XP Yes yes, all the facial + girl's accessories are there.


I have this lil clothes hanger thing beside my cupboard drawers.
Mum got it for like 2bucks only! So so cool!





What's on my shelves?


1st row : My dear soft toys!


2nd + 3rd row: Electronics, Medications, Electrical Appliances, Stationaries + Papers


4th row: Files, Books & Magazines


5th row: Bags... yea, extra box of tissue paper there.


Let's proceed downstairs:

This is the hall. The rest, of the hall, u can take a look at my prev post. I haven't shown ya the cupboard in front of the door yet rite? It's to hang our jackets :)

My mum, myself, housemate and housemate's bf.
Happy family!


Now we're outside!
My housemate locking up.. Yes, that's the main door or gate...


That's the road! So peaceful + quiet.
The tram station is just at the opposite! And off, I can go to the city~


My mum & I in front of the cozy townhouse :)

Thursday, April 17, 2008

One Single Drop (Accapella Choir Group)

Yey!!! Finally, my appetite is BACK!
Yes, no more diarrhea... no more pains... no more stomach rumblings during the wee hours in the morning, and random hours during the day.

Yipee! I am soooo glad that I am able to finish up my meals now... and able to eat a whole lot more than when I was unwell. I MISS EATING!!!~

So what else now?
I just came back from camp 2days ago and it was AWESOME!~
Can't wait to post some pics.. but have to wait till I collect them all first...

First and foremost, here is an awesome video here from camp.
A presentation from the choir team!

Hope you guys enjoy it!


Saturday, April 12, 2008

Sick & Away~

Will be away for Easter Camp.
So if you guys see me online for these 4 days (Sat afternoon - Tues afternoon) , it is NOT me >.<
Seriously!
Unless you are interested to chat with my mum, pls do not msg me online.
*kapish?!*

Ok. See ya all again after the camp.. More pics will be up...

Oh other updates on past few days...
I have been unwell. Literally purged out a lot the 2 days ago... I don't know whether it was plain diarrhea, stomach flu or food poisoning >.< It was horrible!!! Argh! Still don't have my appetite back... Can't digest much either.

I know that I do wanna become thinner, but this is SSSSOOOO not the way~ >.<

Yea, am still recovering and yes, I am still going for camp! LOL!
Yes, some people think that I am crazy! I can't help it! As long as I can still walk (but not too much) and do normal stuff (as long as it is not straineous work)... why not attend the camp?
Plus, it is paid for already.... $Au100 k?!! Must go must go... plus I had so much fun last year! I can't miss this year's camp! I am not too sure whether I'll be able to attend next years XS

However, do pray for my health ya!
Thank you peeps~
See ya all soon!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Welcome to my new room~

So what's the next step now?
Am I coming home to M'sia? No... not this year.
I'm finding for a job here in Adelaide :)

Oh before I go into the whole job thing.. let me introduce to you my new 'home' for the year.

I am staying in a suburb at the South, 10 mins away from city.

If you guys were wondering why I'm always busy or away on MSN, this is the reason.
New place, many stuff to pack, unpack and pack again.


My New Room (just a week before)


Bed, book shelves and closet cupboard


Table and drawers cupboard



Bed and beside table


Yes, my furnitures are all from IKEA.

Officially shifted in on 8th April 2008.


My New Room (now, with more colours & stuff)
My bed (can see my grad pic at the side.. hehe)


Shelves all full of stuff already... with electronics, books, soft toys, bags etc


Yes my table is pretty full with stationaries, table lamp and stuff u're suppose to put on the table...



My drawer cupboard - on top: accessories, make-up, facial stuff... Gals stuff ler. Yes, I am a girl =.= Growing up to be more lady-like too ;P

The rest of the place~

Shower & toilet... basic and you can see a tub at the side


Our lil kitchen!



Our living hall! Just reorganized the place :) Looks spacious than before


Place to put our shoes (behind the townhouse main door)

There is a cupboard downstairs whereby we can put our jackets! SO BIG! SO COOL! :P
'Cuz I seriously have no more space in my room closet di.

What else.. well, there is a garage here but no one uses it 'cause my housemate and I don't own a car.

Yeah... So that's how my new townhouse look like lo :)

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Graduation '08

Yes, I am back in Aussieland again, if some of you guys were wondering.

What the heck am I doing here?

First and foremost, I came back for my graduation.
I officially graduated last Thurs, 3rd April 2008 with a 'Bachelor of Psychological Science'.

Yey!!! Finally! :P All the hard work, sweat, vomit and pain.
"Thank You God for bringing me through my degree!!!"
On my graduation ceremony, I can't help but really thank Him for all the He has done to help me through my studies and my time in Aussie.

Here are some pics of my grad :)

Meet Swiggly my graduation pig (gift from my dear parents *muax* thanks!)


With my parents beside the University of South Australia logo


Yes, that's Me!! Am receiving my graduation certificate. I felt so nervous & excited!
No, I neither fell nor dropped the cert on the stage =.=


My graduation certificate, piggy and orange flowers


My classmates! The rest graduated last Dec '07. Some are finishing up their last semester.
All de best!!! Jia Yao!


The Psychology gals.
Can't believe we graduated together. We were from the same CG in HELP University College before this, before we came to Adelaide.
Mel with her Masters cert, Lydia and I with our Bachelor degree cert.



My fav gals, Shelley & Cheryl!


The BioMed students: Kazu & Cheryl



The guys: Sam & Kazu



The gals: Chloe & Esther

The OCF Group that came visit
Cheryl, Chloe, Liz, Mel, Lyd, Kazu & Sam
Thank you peeps! ^^ Your presence meant a lot to me! Really brought a wide smile unto my face that day.


Throwing the grad hat! It's like a ritual or smtng to do it rite? LOL!


Yes... I do get lots of comments that the pig looks like me.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

I'm Going Home~

This video was taken from Youth Prayer Conference '08 in Ipoh.

During the end of the session, we sang "Home" by Chris Daughtry in YMCA, Ipoh.



I miss you guys heaps!
It was really fun singing & jamming with ya all!
As well as learnin' together, joking around + playin' silly games!
Oh, not to forget the times we 'cam-whore'

Hope to see ya guys again soon!~
Keep in touch ya ;)
Luv ya all!

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Election '08

This is the most 'chi kek' or exciting or nerve wrecking election in the history of M'sia.

Many of us slept really late, chattin' all night, discussing about the election, and constantly refreshin' our webs pages every minute to get the latest news on the votes.

It was crazy!!!

It's like watching F1 car or horse races and betting to see who is winning! You know that feeling? Actually, I've never watched F1 Car or horse race before... lol! I've watched futsal national tournament before la... Yes, LIVE! XD It was exciting indeed!

But of course this isn't the same, because the votes could change the history of M'sia and it'll affect many of lives here.

The government was denied 2/3 of the seats in parliament. 82/222 seats were taken by the opposition parties. It is quite sad and embarrassing for the previous government, really!

As much as we all hoped for the better for the country, by voting for the opposition, we never thought that such huge change would take over our election. WOW!
Now, you can see Malaysians from all races, voicing out their dissatisfaction of the government! New leaders whom we hardly knew, took over the leaders who have been serving us for years, just in a blink of an eye. Some don't even care who they are voting for, as long as it was the opposition.

Now a new government is formed in the parliament!
Continue to pray that the new government will be able to make Malaysia a better place.
I pray that they won't leave M'sia to slowly rott and die... but keep their word to bring a change in this land of ours.

The kind of change that would protect their people... the kind of change that would open up their eyes to see the needs of their people and act upon it... the kind of change that would bring freedom, instead of bounding their own people... the kind of change that replaces fear to by instilling security.

A change is needed... but it can't be done within a month or two.. it'll take time.
Well, some change is better than no change at all.
Hopefully and prayfully, it's gonna be a GOOD change.

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Why pray?

Thought I'll share what I've read.... so that I'll remember as well.

Why do Christians pray to God and what is the point of prayer? John Calvin answered...

"Believers do not pray with the view to informing God about the things unknown to Him, or of exciting Him to do His duty, or of urging Him as though He were reluctant. On the contrary, they pray in order that they may arouse themselves to seek Him, that they may exercise their faith in meditating on His promises, that they may relieve themselves from their anxieties by pouring them into His bosom; in a word that they may declare that from Him alone they hope and expect, both for themselves and for others, all good things".

- cited in John Stott (2006), Through the Bible, Through the Year -

My thoughts...
I am reminded once again on the importance of prayer. I mean, it's not just about communicating to Him as a friend, as a Father... telling Him about my needs or asking for help, or just pouring out my life story. Nothing wrong with that. It is the MAIN thing to communicate with Him and be transparent to Him, but we need to HUMBLY come before Him and present ourselves to Him.

I realize that sometimes we just simply come into His presence, assuming that whatever we bring or say is favorable in His eyes or 'okay' to His ears. Sometimes we be so self-absorbed and assume that we can babble away about our needs, our lives, our thoughts without really thinking about it through about what He'll think. Not that we should hide away our real thoughts and act perfect, say the perfect things, as if He doesn't already know the thoughts we have or the heart of it. Also, life does not only center around us. Often we forget to humble ourselves before Him and we forget that He is God. He has the right to kill us at the spot because we are unclean and unholy... but He does not because He is a merciful God. We need to remember/recall really, to whom we are coming to with our prayers. He is a God who not ignorant or hesitant to meet our needs, but prayer is not just about us, but really about Him. So, when we come before Him, should we abruptly come before Him without much thought... or CAREFULLY come before Him which much thought?

I do wonder often, why pray when there is nothing for me to say? The bible says when we pray don't keep babbling meaningless words... What we pray have to mean something. It's not simply for a 'good show'. This was how I responded for the last couple of months, "if I got nothing to say, then no need to say anything la. At least I'm presenting myself real before Him rite?" Isn't that kinda arrogant and ignorant? As much as I am not babbling to Him or presenting repetitions of prayers.. or try to show off that I can pray, it is no greater when you think that there is simply nothing you should or want to present to Him (meaning, you do not wanna seek or rely on Him or believe in what He can do) or there is nothing worthy to say about Him... simply nothing to praise Him about as well.

Another point, this question in the book stucked me, "What sort of a God is this who is chiefly impressed by the mechanics and the statistics of prayer?" It's scary if we have that kinda God, isn't it? It's not about how we structure our prayers, how perfect our prayer may sound, or how we can impress others with what we say to Him. It's not about the content of the prayer.... the super 'keng'/'chun' words we use over and over again or how much we babble/how many times we repeat ourselves to Him. It is about the heart of prayer... even with nothing to say, but the simplest or shortest words you can find to express yourself to Him and His worthiness... Or the act of being silent because you are in awe of His presence... those are meaningful prayers.

To sum it all, what is prayer all about? It's not merely about us... it is MAINLY about Him. It enhances His characteristics and a declaration that He is a living, personal, loving and powerful God.

I pray that God will change my attitude towards prayer and for those who struggles to understand what prayer is really about as well.

Friday, March 07, 2008

Food for thought

"To return evil for good is devilish.
To return good for good is human.
To return good for evil is divine".

-Alfred Plummer-

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Dapheny dear!

Babe, you're awesome!!! *hugz*

Let me give a brief introduction of my darling dear "Dapheny"!


These are her physical features:
She's kinda sleek with incredibly smooth skin!
She's looks totally cool and hot at the same time!
She's sexy in her black outfit! Love it!
Almost flawless... *gosh*

-Ok... I can see the guys drooling out there... lol.. eww-

These are her characteristics:
She can make anyone look good!
She's neat, orderly and organized!
She's quick in responding and picking up on the things you'll need!
She's incredibly capable and efficient in whatever she does!

Pls welcome my darling dear "Dapheny"!!!
My 3days old Vostro 1400!!! Bwhahaah!!! Lovin' every single bit of it...



She's a lil heavy though.. won't say bulky.. But it's okay, I still love 'her'.

My baby! *hugz*muax*hugz*muax* XOXO *

Hahaha I'm sure many of you crave for that kinda affection, no?
Sorry, all given to my darling 'Dapheny' only. Haha!!!

My lil baby...
Now everything is alright... everything is going fine... she is perfect.. like a cute lil baby... angel in our eyes.. perfect in every way. Lol. And you know babies collect lots of trash too... Babies learn, adapt fast and receive/play with whatever she sees.
** but I've gotta admit... comps don't exactly give much trouble in early years, but babies do.

Later years when 'she' grows, there would be the rebellious teenage period, whereby 'she'll' become a lil dysfunctional.

Then, as 'she' learns from it all and fix up 'her' life, 'she'll' be all matured and grown up. That's when the technicians fix her up.

Then 'she' gets old and dies too. Lifespan of a notebook, maybe about 6-7 years?

:) Thank yous mummy and daddy for this wonderful gift XD
Next time I can have my 'own' baby. Really ONE!!!

Friday, February 29, 2008

Different Perspectives

ORIGINAL QUOTE:
If you love someone,
Set her free...
If she comes back, she's yours,
If she doesn't, she never was....

THE NEW VERSIONS:

Pessimist:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
If she ever comes back, she's yours,
If she doesn't, as expected, she never was

Optimist:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
Don't worry, she will come back.

Suspicious:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
If she ever comes back, ask her why.

Impatient:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
If she doesn't come back within some time forget her.

Patient:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
If she doesn't come back, continue to wait until she comes back ...

Playful:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
* If she comes back,
and if you love her still,
set her free again, repeat *

Animal-Rights Activist:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
In fact, all living creatures deserve to be free!!

Lawyers:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
Clause 1a of Paragraph 13a-1 in the Second Amendment of the
Matrimonial Freedom Act clearly states that...

Bill Gates :
If you love someone,
Set her free,
If she comes back,
I think we can charge her for re-installation fees but tell her that
she's also going to get an upgrade.

Biologist :
If you love someone,
Set her free,
She'll evolve.

Statisticians :
If you love someone,
Set her free,
If she loves you,
the probability of her coming back is high
If she doesn't, your relation was improbable anyway.

Schwarzenegger' s fans :
If you love someone,
Set her free,
SHE'LL BE BACK!

Over-possessive person :
If you love someone
don't set her free .

HR specialist :
If you love someone
set her free by
Offering her VRS and other benefits
Then outsource her.

MBA :
If you love someone
set her free instantaneously
and look for others simultaneously

Psychology :
If you love someone
set her free
If she comes back her super ego is dominant
If she doesn't come back her id is supreme
If she doesn't go, she must be crazy.

Somnambulist :
If you love someone
set her free
If she comes back it's a nightmare
If she doesn't, you must be dreaming.

ERP functional expert :
If you love someone
set her free
If she comes back, map her into your system
If she doesn't, carry out a gap-fit analysis

Finance expert :
If you love someone
set her free
If she comes back, its time to look for fresh loans
If she doesn't, write her off as an asset gone bad.

Marketing Specialist :
If you love someone
set her free
If she comes back she has brand loyalty
If she doesn't, reposition the brand in new market.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Baking... Shopping... Appointments...

I know I know.. I haven't been updating.
Truth is... I don't know what to post up or share anymore.
How's life? What I've been doing? Same ol' same ol'. Well, I can't quite remember what I do these days.

Oh oh.. I've been baking lately. Argh! Should have took pics.. and put up online. 'Cuz if there were pics... you can see the evolution process.. From worst to... not so bad looking. LOL! It is fun to bake! Well, I haven't had a perfect cake or cookies... yet. LOL! What I've baked so far:

1) M&M Cookies : A lil too salty.
2) Blueberry mini muffins : Too oily, flat top and as hard as a cookie.
LOL! Ok ok.. i forgot to put water. Pls forgive me >.<
3) Banana Cake : Not enough banana.
4) Vanila Butter Cake with Choc Chip & Raisins : Well... presentation was horrible. It reminded my friend of his rabbit feces. So unfortunate. But it tasted alright k!!! >.< Sorry la.

5) Vanilla Butter Cake with Choc Chips and M&Ms : It was the best among all! YES!! But unfortunately, the cake cracked into 3 pieces... so, it looks a lil unpresentable. Better than the cake before, THANK GOD! A lil soggy though :( Made it in the morning.. rush to pack it.. so didn't air it long enough.

see the banana cakes at the side ;)

Well, cookies + muffins + banana cake were for friends & family, specifically for Vday and CNY as well as reunion. Both cakes mentioned were for friends' birthday. Not too sure whether they were fortunate that I baked for them or just unfortunate.. hehe :) Well, it did give both of them a shock. 1st friend wasn't sure what the cake was.. LOL! Though it was a fruit cake. 2nd person didn't expect a home-made cake because... the packaging were from 'Secret Recipe' and 'Cake sense'. LOL! Kena CON!!! XD

I am yet to improve my baking skills. I'm soooo gonna learn from Adelaide! Many more of my friends there knows how to bake cake... this includes the guys! SO SO COOL!

Ok.. enough about baking. Let's see what else I can talk about.

Oh yea.. have been shopping with mum lately. Got lotsa new stuff and restricting myself from getting too many new stuff. Bringing them to Aus would be an issue.. No space liao T.T so have to limit. Not that I really like to shop.. just that when I do, I can go a lil crazy. What have I shopped for lately with my mum... clothes/accessories/item to prepare mua for working, of course. Handbags... and.. that's all. Tomorrow would be dresses and shoes. Next week, gonna shop with one of my high school dear close friend.. wanna see what she gets :) She's good with fashion stuff!

Gonna start packing next week onwards di. See whether can fit my stuff a not... pack what I can (Winter & working clothes). Then, have to make appointments before I go off.

Appointments: Dentist and hairdresser.
Social appointment: Visit Jazz Bar. Cannot forget! Bwhahaha! Can't wait! ;)

Oh man... I realize... I am.. becoming.. a woman O_O talking about baking, shopping and making appointments. Oh geez... Yes, I have to accept the fact that I am.. growing up.

"I'm not a girl... not yet a woman....", Lizzie sings the song by Britney Spears. Since the prev post doesn't quite pass me as a woman yet... but I can no longer be a small girl anymore either :( *sobz*

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

True? Girls vs Women

Girls vs. Grown Women


Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and make plans.

Grown women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits

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Girls want to control the man in their life.

Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling.

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Girls check you for not calling them.

Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn't.

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Girls are afraid to be alone.

Grown women revel in it-using it as a time for personal growth.

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Girls ignore the good guys.

Grown women ignore the bad guys.

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Girls make you come home.

Grown women make you want to come home.

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Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.

Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.

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Girls try to monopolize all their man's time ( I.e., don't want him hanging with his friends).

Grown women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time' even more special-and goes to kick it with her own friends!

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Girls think a guy crying is weak.

Grown women offer their shoulder and a tissue.

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Girls want to be spoiled and 'tell' their man so.

Grown women 'show' him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his 'manhood'.

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Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.

Grown women know that that was just one man.

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Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their affection, ignoring all 'signs'.

Grown women know that sometimes the one you love, don't always love you back-and move on, without bitterness.

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Girls will read this and get an attitude.

Grown women will read this and pass it on to other Grown women and their male friends.

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Sunday, February 03, 2008

Prayer: Asked vs given (Wants vs. needs)

I asked for strength that I might achieve;
I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.
I asked for health that I might do greater things;
I was given infirmity that I might do better things.
I asked for riches that I might be happy;
I was given poverty that I might be wise.
I asked for power that I might have the praise of men;
I was given weakness that I might feel that the need of God.
I asked for all things that I might enjoy life;
I was given life that I might enjoy all things.
I got nothing that I have asked for,
but everything that I have hoped for.
Almost despite myself my unspoken prayers were answered;
I am, among all men, most richly blessed.

An Unknown Confederate Soldier


"Our prayers are often filled with selfish "wants"; God always answers with what we need"
Anonymous


Taken from Sanctuary: A devotional Bible for women, pp 1069.
Adapted from the One Year Book of Personal Prayer (Carol Stream, III.: Tydale, 1991), June 11.

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Wow! If only we can put aside our prides and see things that way. Look at our circumstances thru His eyes... and know that He doesn't shortchange us but He is a God that loves to bless us.
However He does it in ways we do not expect or understand... yet. But when we do, we realize...
that we are extremely blessed by His goodness, grace, mercy and love. We will soon realize that He knows what is best for us... and He provides the best, even when not everything in life seem to go on as well as we thought it's suppose to be or when we do not get what we want. He will provide us with other needs instead.

"God, help us be thankful and understand Your motive for answering our needs instead of all our wants in life..."

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Health Freak?

"No chilli for a month", says the doc :(

Well, it seems that I haven't been eating healthily and that produced some problems. If not, why wouldn't I be able to take chilli, right?

Since then (well, last week) I've decided to live a healthier lifestyle. I changed my eating+drinking habits and decided to exercise too.

Drinking: Taking more than just a cup of water. I attempt to drink at least 2 cups and a bottle of water each day.

Eating: Eat more veggies and fruits. I think a dish of veg at least a meal a day. Trying to eat fruits every morning but at the moment, not enough fruits in refrigerator.

Supplement/vitamins: Taking supplement each day.

Exercise: Sit-ups, crunching (whatever u call it.. the one you lift your leg and down to exercise the bottom of your stomach) and cycling (on the machine). Doing it once in 2 days.


My bro is training me for my exercise. He is an expert since he gets trained by his gym instructor. So in turn, he is training me now! First training was 2 days ago... I was shouting in pain because it was so difficult! But I told myself, "Lizzie, YOU CAN!!! Persevere!!! Can ONE!!!". Hehe cheering myself on in my mind. Parents was wondering why were there someone shouting in pain. LOL!

The next day, I didn't quite feel any pain at first, but later in the evening, the pain grew...! T.T OUCH! So PAIN!!! If anyone were to touch my tummy, I would be screaming or something (ok la, not so drama :P). So I rested for a day. That's when I decided not to do it everyday, but on alternate days.

Hopefully whatever I am doing now, I'll do it consistently :) Wish me all the best!

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Living up to our names?

ELIZABETH
means 'consecrated to God' and is of Hebrew origin

Elizabeth is sophisticated and noble
She can be child like and child-oriented
She has the ability to succeed in life
She is spontaneous and direct
Only when allowed freedom will she be happy
She has a forthright approach of life
Her unflagging energy is an inspiration
She is an innovator and originator
Sh structures and give shape to others
She considers her home to be her castle

Another interpretation (from keychain my dear friend/bro gave me):
One devoted to all she meets
Being a model to the community for how she loves her family and friends
Hard working and charitable
Giving her all, loves to excel
Knowing she is doing her best and feeling a special glow from it
Watch your hearts, for she'll take them every time and not even know it


LISA
(My nickname - only family & 'ol close friends call me by that name)
means 'honey bee' and is of Greek origin

Lisa is expansive and warm
Obstacles in her way tend to be ignored
She is sometimes attracted to secretiveness
She values freedom
She has a great urge to untangle mysteries
She is highly aware of her public image
She is both practical and imaginative
She has revolutionary zeal
She frequently arouses emotions in others
She strives to excel in everything she does


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So, these are the meanings and apparently the 'personality' to my name.
What do ya think? Does it sound like me? hehe :)
I see the person I used to be and the person I am now, mentioned above. I see the person I want to be as well...

Well, what do you guys think?
Maybe I'll comment what I think at the next post :)

Saturday, January 12, 2008

2007 (continuation...)

Adventure
The first year I went overseas to study, is the year I had so much fun traveling with/became close to my heart. I am thankful that they would have me join the trips. I feel so blessed! :) The year alone, I went to Melbourne twice (April & Nov-Dec '07), Gold Coast/Brisbane (Sept '07), houseboat trip in Adelaide (July '07), 3 church camps (March, July, Dec '07), visited around Adelaide with different groups of friends - OCF budz, university budz and house mate, bf + friend. I thank God for the opportunity to travel with these people and enjoy traveling. Each vacation I went for, left memories... :) Through these adventures I learnt heaps about myself too.

Adventures are self-discoveries as well.


Independence
Being in a foreign place without my family and many people I really know, taught me so so much. Before going to Aus, I do not know how to live on my own. I didn't know how to cook, to clean... When I shared house with 2 other housemates, we had chores t do each day. So I had to learn to be more responsible and to clean the house. I learnt cooking from mum when she was in Aus with me for that couple of days to help me assimilate into a new home and place. I learnt to di laundry from housemates. Yes, I've never done any of these chores before until I stepped foot in Aus because at home, everything was provided for. We had a maid to do the cooking and cleaning for us. I was out so often, that I didn't pay much attention to prepare myself for my independence in Aus.

Well, with the independence I had in Aus, comes decisions in which I have to make as well. Independence on how I spend my time, how I handle my last year of uni, on the people I choose to mix with, how I want to live my life... etc. I won't say that I've done everything perfectly. I did some rights and some wrongs... but the experiences have taught me well. I'm learning to make the right decisions now because I realize that decisions doesn't only affect myself then, but the person I wanna be in the future and the people around me.

Independence is not easy to come by for some. Learn from it and live it out when you have the opportunity.


Freedom
With the freedom I have, I believe comes responsibility as well. I know that freedom doesn't come easy... but when I had all the freedom in Aus, I almost went crazy. LOL! Again, choices have to be made on the freedom I possess. Really, what is freedom? Does freedom come without boundaries? I can say that freedom without boundaries will lead to destruction, because you just can't differentiate what's right and wrong. Freedom without boundaries, made me feel happy for a moment because I can do anything I want! But soon I realize, that there really is no joy in my life because I do not seem to be governing my own life. Not all that comes along are good.

"Everything might be permissible, but not everything is beneficial"


Perseverance
I learnt to persevere in studies and hardships with others. It was so tough when you are facing assignments and examinations, when at the same time, everything else in your life came crumbling down as well. Everything that you've known and understood are at lost, and when you know that you're not doing the best you can or have no strength to continue on... I learnt not to rely on my own strength. I had friends and family who supported me through (in Aus, M'sia, wherever they may be), and esp God to keep me sane and cont to push me to live on.. persevere and not give up. I admire my mum's perseverance in all that she does and I thought to myself, if she can do it, I can too. My mum was like the living proof of success, after all the hardships she went through.

Perseverance... to push on, to do the things which seem impossible at the moment. To push through even when you don't see the end result yet, but trust that it is there. It's easier to persist when there is a goal ahead, when you can see a result at the end of what you're doing. Pushing through whatever that comes your way, and persisting in finishing the race.. finishing whatever that you've started. I felt the joy of persevering and it was all worth it!

Persevere with someone whom you think would push you beyond what you THINK you can do or are capable of, and help you to continue reaching your goal until the end.


Home/Family
When I was down and lonely, when I was hurt and was in the pit... When I fell into depression in Aus, home and family was the only place I felt belonged in. When friendships seem so shaky, when I felt I couldn't trust anyone, I was crushed with many issues and people, I felt there were no were else I could turn to... but my family. No one else could compensate the love that my family gave to me.

I've regretted so much that I didn't spend enough time with my family before I left Aus. When I was in Aus, they supported me from afar and when they knew what I was going through, they didn't blame me or point fingers to me.. but they continue to be patient and encourage me. I was surprised to hear their advices. I realized that they treat me, no longer a child but an adult. They've let go of me and asked me to make my own decisions for myself, but they were always there to support me through.

Mum was my inspiration to cont to press on and persevere through hardships. Dad was there to provide wisdom on taking ownership of my life and decisions. Bro... well, he nags me, but I know that he cares and worries so much for me :) I really really love them and I thank God for wonderful parents and bro.

The ones at home are the ones who should know & understand you the most.

2007

The year have taught me about...

Friendships

Different seasons, I had different close trusted friends. Making new friends and choosing the people you wanna be close with. Also, allowing God to move in the friendship and trust that it can work out. Other people can say lots about your friendship with another, but at the end of the day, the definition and decision on the matters of friendship is yours. Friend who was willing to go a mile for me... genuine friendship (with a brother in Christ) that I haven't quite experienced before. Sisters who are there through my thick and thins... whom I can share my life experiences with.

Not to forget, friendships which crushed my heart into pieces too, filled it with disappointments and anger. Friendships which sometimes needed to be initiated, to be pushed. Friendships in which you wonder whether it'll still run when initiation had stopped. Some did stop until you're suddenly remembered or not heard from for months. Friends whom assume the person you are without really knowing you. Friends who betrayed my trust. Friendships that were close but are no longer. Friendships which became awkward instead.

There is a need for balance in friendships.

A friendship extended to another, can make a difference in ways no one could ever know.


Relationships
Shouldn't be rushed. Knowing the person is essential. Having a close group of friends who can keep you accountable. Listening to what your friends have to say about the person. They do know better most of the time. When you're supposed to wait... pls WAIT!!! Do put it on hold. Be patient. A rushed relationship is temporary... Feelings can come easily but it takes both individuals' effort to make it work. Maturity is needed to handle a relationship. It is not only critical to consider spiritual compatibility... but also mental compatibility. One may aim for marriage in a relationship, but one does not need to be too focused on it. Sometimes relationship doesn't work out... IT'S OK if it doesn't. Commitment is not a feeling. It's a choice... Love is too.

True love waits.


Letting go
I don't have to keep starting anew. I can cont from where I am and try to make it right by learning from mistakes and moving forward - focused on what is ahead. Restarting my life in a different place, doesn't quite make it. Leaving what is behind is the solution for the ability to look what is ahead of you. Never keep ruminating about the past. Leave the past behind... or you'll be too blinded to see what is ahead, too dysfunctional to live, and too stunted to grow or move on.

Holding and focusing too much on one's successes and ol' glorious days can be prevent one from moving forward as well. What used to be good, can be better.. It doesn't have to be worst.

It's like a scar. When you look at it now, it doesn't hurt as before when there was a wound there. Evidently it is still there to serve as a reminder, to not make the same mistakes that caused the scar again.


Myself
It's ok to respond differently in different circumstances, but it is better to be consistent. It is ok to be angry or disappointed from expectations. It is ok not to smile all the time. I got lost trying to find for my identity - broke rules, broke boundaries, broke standards, broke integrity. One doesn't have to compromise one's values and beliefs to relate to another. It is always hard trying to mix with people who are different than you. The different characters in oneself, makes one unique - even so as weaknesses are included. Understanding my limits and how much I can push the limits. Humility becomes harder to possess in age.

How do you know if you're yourself? The peace upon the person you are now.

Sometimes, the only person who limits you from becoming your best, is YOURSELF.


His unconditional LOVE
A constant reminder that He still loves me from different people in my life. His love that could wash away my brokenness and hurts. His love that accepts me for who I am, even when I'm in the deepest lowest pit. Even when I ran away, He kept looking for His lost child, waiting for the child to be come back. His patience to endure my nonsense. His love that carries me.. and help me to forgive. His love that made a difference once upon a time, and can still make a difference in my life and other ppl's lives too. His love that can be seen through others.

He chose to love me still.

Friday, January 11, 2008

What has been happening?

Heyz! So what's up so far?
I've been pretty busy and thus, the abandoned blog...
Well, I have been wrecking my mind to think of what to write as well.
Haven't quite reflected much... well, I think a lot more these days. I really should record it down. But when I have a pen and paper, I don't think I can write as much as I used to.

Ok, updates since I came back?

  1. Christmas: Met up with friends in church & had family lunch with unc & aunt
  2. 21st birthday, graduation & Christmas party
  3. Joined the choir for church service during New Year's eve
  4. FLARE (Youth worship team) gathering/lunch/bonding, FINALLY! (the last we had was 30th Dec '06)
  5. Celebrated ex-CG member's birthday - GEORGE! (on new year!) Just a small group of us
  6. Karaoke-d TWICE, jamming session in studio ONCE
  7. A day hang out in KLANG with OCFers
  8. Met up with a few friends... still planning to meet more
Yea, I think those were the main events.

I still haven't quite written down my New Year's Resolution or my summary of 2007, rite?
Will hopefully do that soon :)
Hopefully more pics too, eh?

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Back + Busy

I know.. I know.. I haven't been posting for almost a month.
No worries.. I'll be posting something soon.. Once I actually have the time to SIT down and THINK of something to EXPRESS out.

Well, I have lots of pics. Maybe I'll just let the pics do the talking for my next few posts. It'll probably take a while as well...