Reason to Live?

I had a long talk with my best friend today. I missed her so much! We talked for hours about life & things that matters to us. Can't believe we are already 'young ladies'. I love seeing all my friends grow and I'm so glad to hear that she has made so much difference in people's lives... She learnt so much about God, life, relationships etc. I see the radiance in her, though her life wasn't all that good or high. Most of all, I respect her for knowing what she wants in life, knowing what she can achieve and do & make a difference in her life and people around her. She really inspires the gals, the younger ones.. bring them hope and support them in so many ways. She has a reason to live.

When I look back into my life. I feel as if, I am the opposite of her. I am still insecure of what my future will be. I am most of the time confused with my own identity and what I want for myself even. I feel as if there is no reason for me to live. Let's face some facts... I am not much of a person whom "make a difference" wherever I go or whatever I do. I don't do much inspiring cuz I just don't know what to say most of the time, whether advice ppl or make them feel better. The best I can do, "I'll be your friend & will be here" (which sometimes, I get into trouble with as well). hehe I don't know what I want in life.. I don't even know what God wants from me!

Sometimes, I just feel so tired of living. I am not much use in this world anyway. So, wouldn't make much of a difference if I am gone, rite? Why O why, am I here in the first place? I seem to hurt those whom I seem to be making a difference in their lives (at first). So, there's not much of a positive differences there. I don't know what am I doing here. Okay.. besides, serving Him in ministries, worshipping Him and all. What else is there in life for me? Even as a CG leader, I am not an outstanding one. I am supposed to bring change but I am not doing much in CG as well to encourage or bring change.

I wanna live my life with a purpose.. knowing what I have to do & be bold to do it. Perhaps I do know but I swept it under a rug because I was afraid that I wouldn't be strong or courageous enough to be different. Somehow, something inside of me is whispering to my soul, "you can be more than you think you are". Why do I find it hard to believe? Because it doesn't seem evident enough?

Sometimes, just wanna give up ya know. But, I can't yet. There has to be a reason, rite? And I'll never know if I throw my life away. I do wonder if I am gone, what will I be missed for? Will or have I be a good testimony in people's lives? I don't know.. but I sure hope that God will be evident in my life.. cuz I am not living for myself but for Him.. and His Name will be lifted up through the things He did in me (whether with or without my knowledge).

I do hope that... I made a difference in a lil things I do...
Hopefully it'll be a lil more clear to me on why I am still here & learn of the reason to live.

Desperate enough?

Hehaha I may appear as a 'desperado' because of my previous posts. As much as I hate to admit it, if I really do, give a thought about it, perhaps I am. I am so excited to be with my future husband. I really am! I don't know whether I have already met him since a long time ago, just met him or haven't met him yet.

As I wondered to myself about my desperate-ness... I really thought to myself.. how come, I haven't been so excited to meet God that way? How come I can be so desperate to be with someone (whom I may or may not know yet) but not be desperate enough for my God?

This really got me thinking... how do I know if I am desperate for Him? I haven't felt that way in a really long time... Wait, have I ever been desperate for Him? I don't know >_< What I do know is that, I am certainly not desperate enough for Him now.

What comes into my mind when I think about the word desperate?
- longing after... heavily relying on... hanging on tightly?

I frankly think, I am more desperate to be with people than God then. I feel as if I often seem to lose a grip of Him. What can I do, to be desperate for Him, once again? To be excited when I meet Him each day when I wake up... To have the overflowing desire to know Him...?

"O God, I wanna be excited when I see You. I wanna have that longing to really know you as well as understand Ya & be with Ya always... Lord, help me to stay put & hold unto You tightly. Help me to learn that, I need You more than I ever will know. Help me to understand that there is greater love in You than the peeps that I constantly seek for around me. Let my soul thirst for You... I pray, in Jesus Name, Amen."

What kind of girlfriend am I?

You're a Steady Supporter
Stand by your man - that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot to trust (in him & yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.

For you, mutual respect is the utmost importance. You are comfortable & confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he is striving to climb up a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too!

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

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Hehehe, just did this for fun! Cool... but how true it is.. I dunno la! hehehe
But it'll be nice, if i can really be someone stated above when I am in a relationship.
I do want to build my partner up & encourage one another in not just human love, but God's love. I know that I'll give him my support in whatever he does...
Am excited to be with him in the future (whoever he is!) ^_^

Stuck in dreamland

Have you experienced a time whereby, when you were sleeping and you want to wake up, but you just can't. You struggle to open your eyes.. like you just CAN'T open them and in your preconcious state, you keep telling yourself to open them. Then, you can imagine the external view, your surroundings, trying to make your body to wake yourself up, but you just can't?

Ever feel as if you just can't get out of your unconcious/preconcious state? Just stuck there, unable to get up or move yourself at times... struggling.. As though, someone was pushing your body down or someone sitting on you. Your body just felt as though it was pinned on the bed/couch you were sleeping on.

Terrible feeling, rite? After long hours of sleeping, you feel even more tired than before.

Anyone can explain all these to me??? It seems kinda scary. I feel that quite often now. Is it because my body is extremely tireed & crying out for rest? I have been sleeping earlier than before (I think!). Any other explanations?

Felt as if I was in coma... The difference is, in coma, you can't get up for few months or years.
Felt like sleep apnea, but in that state, you are gasping for air & unable to breath at the middle of your sleep.

So, what is it? Does it often happen to you?

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Listen to the music played in her blog.
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"I will be here" by Steven Curtis Chapman

I love the song "I will be here" from Steven Curtis Chapman.

Whenever I here this song, I feel like crying.
The song is so meaningful... brings warmth to my heart.
Knowing that... someone truly loves me & willing to be by my side.
No matter what circumstances we're in,
and someone just being able to accept & loves me for who I am...
Just knowing that someone is there walking in life with you,
when no one seems to be there.

Dedication to my future husband, whoever you are :
(and I'm sure, from him to me too)

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I, I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
I, I will be here

# I will be here, when you feel like being quiet,
When you need to speak your mind, I will listen
I will be here, when the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
'Cause I will be here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the future is unclear
I, I will be here
As sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetime were made for these tears
So, I, I will be here

# I will be here, so you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here, to watch you grow in beauty,
All tell you all the things, you mean to me
I will be here

B: I will be true, to the promise I have made
To you and to the One, who gave you to me

Just as sure, season were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So, I, I will be here
We'll be together
'Cause I will be here....


Dear God,
"Thank you, Father Lord, for this reminder as well, that You love me so much and You are always there. Perhaps, I feel like crying because it is so hard to grasp on that thought, that You will be there.. even when I've fell, gone thru mistakes after mistakes in life and ran away from you countless times. Though so, you never failed to assure me, that You are still there, waiting for me to come back into Your loving arms. Remind me of Your love day by day. Help me to understand the love You have for us, Your children. I... wanna love You. Help me love You and in turn, love others around me."

Love,
Your dear child, Liza.


To my dear future husband (whoever you are & if I have one),
Know that I have always loved you. Sorry for the dissapointments & hurt that I have made. I thank you for the times we've shared. Thank you for letting me into your life and giving me a chance to walk with you through the remaining days of our lives. I know that I've never regretted it when I said "I do". Thank you for keeping me pure. Even if we had fell into tempations before marriage, I know that with God by our side, we have overcome it... and our purity would be restored. Know that... as the seasons may change in our lives, even when it may seem as though our love have grown cold, know that I still love you & I want continue to be with you. Remember this song, my love. A promise we've made for each other.

Yours dearly, Lizzie.

Lost for Words

I'm lost for words...
words that may have been kept deep inside of me.

Will be back

I have so many things I want to share but can't seem to find the time to type it all down.
All I have to say for now is - "I'll be back".

Friends... What happened to them?

I realized that I have been spending so much time being busy with my ministries and with my work that I do not have the time to connect with the people around me. It's kinda sad that I feel disconnected at times with my own peers and group of friends. Ones we were so carefree, we can talk about anything, anyhow but now, I often rush in and out and I don't really have the time to really sit down and talk to the people I really care as well as the people that seem close to me before.

Sometimes, it's not just the many things you have to do that takes your time. It is the aftermath of it as well. You'll feel extremely tired.. physically, mentally and all. You'll feel drained out after it all. Therefore, it seem as if you have no time for anything else cuz all you just want do is to REST!

I guess that is why now, I feel so disconnected from the ones I was close to before. I still am really grateful for the ones who stick close and check up on me continuously. I mean, not just talking about work related business kinda thing or surface level of myself but more on the personal level. I really appreciate the effort of those who really encourages me and wanna take a deeper look into my life. At the same time, the person gives me space to breathe. That is how relationships or true friendships works.

I guess, I also have to learn to take the effort. People should know that I am not much of a conversationalist. If one guides me to talk, and we talk about something that I can share and relate about, I can too... if not, i really don't have much to talk about but I really am able to be interested in what you have to say. So, you don't have to be afraid that I am uninterested or I feel bored. Reality is... no, I don't feel bored in what you have to say. I can have fun just by listening. Unless rite, you talk about the same topic repeatedly, whenever we hang out and all... (eg. computer games). In the first place, it is not nice to talk about something on and on, if the person doesn't understand or unable to relate to the topic and esp when you know they are uninterested in the topic.

I can be friendly and try to initiate conversations the first time ya know me and all. But I learn that I don't have to be not myself... get it? Meaning, I can try all I want to be a conversationalist but when I really don't have much to talk about or really don't feel like making a conversation, I don't have to force myself to do so. Of course, I would like to at least make the effort and try la. It's not so good if people thinks that the friendship they have with me is just one-way relationship.

The irony is... sometimes people expect me to do something about the friendship when I don't think they really done much about it either. Seriously! and that really got me thinking, why the heck do I need to bother so much or why do I always have to be the first one who give it a push/initiate/reconcile. Perhaps the expectations of the friendship is different. Like I would like the person to be more (...A...) and the person would like me to be more (...B...). So, there is no shared realities and we think as if, the person is not putting in effort in the friendship as they should be, when they do put effort in it.. just not the kind that we want.

I guess, we just need to learn to understand one another & how each other works. I've been a busy person, but that doesn't mean that I do not care about my friends. I really do. I miss them. I know that I have to do my part of the friendship... but I also hope that it works both ways as well.

Know this... I am not an all rounder. I need my space, I need time for myself. I also need to be cared for and I want to care for my friends as well. I am just human... like anyone of you.

Vday aka. Fday

Blessed Valentine's Day!
For the singles 'n my dear friends, Blessed Friendship Day!

I had a great time yesterday. No, not because I went out for a hot date. Actually, I went out for a few dates! hehehe jk jk. Nah, just hanging out with some of my friends from different places. I am glad that we got to spend the time together.


Breakfast
Makan with 2 of my college mates. I couldn't eat much as I was trying to get rid of my phlagm. Not much appetite these days, as a result of my flu. Unable to taste much.


Lunch (most memorable)
5 of us went for an expensive makan in Tmn Tun. The place ah... only age 18 & above can enter 'cuz they have alcoholic drinks. No.. it's not like a pub or club. The place is a bit like "Chilli's" or "TGF". The place was kinda empty though. Good also la.. we made so much noise. At least, we know we didn't disturb any couples 'romantic-ing' there.

There were Pui Fun, Sue Wern, Andrew Tan, Lemuel & myself. We just chatted a lot & kacau one another. It's amazing indeed how God brought all of us together. I never thought that the trio "us keyboardist gang" can be sooo close-knit. I continue to thank God for having these people in my life. When we are together, we really bond, encourage & keep one another accountable in our spiritual lives & the things we do in life as well.

Well, we do a lil bullying one another as well *smack* Yeah, we had our makans & our laughs. I think for the first time in a group, all of us actually spent RM150 (most of us are students) for our lunch. That's why I told you edi.. the place is very X! *expensive*


Dinner
My original dinner plan was cancelled because there were too few of us & some other reasons as well. I actually planned to 'dress up' for the first time, since we may have went to another classy place to eat. Someone suggested a steakhouse - the "Ship"!!! Wow! I'll only dress up in one condition... if another one of my gal friend dresses up too. And when I say dress up, means where a skirt or dress la.. Which I do not usually wear them *wonder why I bought skirts, in the first place*.

You see, I feel very comfortable with my jeans wherever I go. And I think no one else in church or anywhere else have seen me wore a dress or skirt before, except for special occasions like wedding dinner or prom. So yeah. It was one of my crazy ideas that nite. Since, that plan was cancelled, I didn't need to worry about feeling really *malu* wearing a skirt =P seriously, I'll feel very embarressed! But of course, once in a while, I would like to at least use the skirt that has been kept for year in my cupboard (collecting dust)- i did use it last year for a wedding =P. Okie, perhaps once a year I manage to use it.

Then, another group of friends had plans to go for 'couple hunting' during dinner. I have no idea where they get that kind of idea. Maybe of those peeps (the guys came up with it) are quite desperate during Vday!! *jk, jk* heheh sorry ah.. kacau those peeps only* At the end, we didn't do that. We ate at Williams!!! Hehehe Not bad eh. The place is good! You have variety of food to pick from & it's considered cheap! You can get some of the food that are provided in some of those Western food or Itallian food places. Some peeps even said that Williams is much better than those expensive places.

One of my friend kept shooting pictures in Williams. Now, I know why!!! Look at http://danielk.blogdrive.com . Yeah.. there were mainly guys there & another gal. I wasn't that close to many of them eventhough they were from DJ school. I only know peeps like Brian, Alex 'n Daniel well. Pretty funny conversations, they had. I realize the way I kacau my friends and the way they kacau each other were different. But, it's great to see secondary school friends come back to meet each other & spend some time just crapping around as well as do some catching up- updated news on what's been happening.


Well, that was my day. I really enjoyed myself. I am glad that I was able to spend time with some of my friends. Oh before that, wanna show you... this is my bear bear! Thanks 'di' for the my friendship day gift & farewell gift *he thought I was leaving this mid-year*. Actually who knows... plans change... I may or may not be leaving this year.

Missing You

Missing my friends who are leaving to Aussie
Missing those who have already left before

Missing my friends who are still here but unseen
Missing also the ones who are here but not as close as before

Missing the times we've shared together
Missing the times we've poured our hearts out

Missing the times we've hang out
Missing the times we've laughed & cried

Missing the times we'll make it through the day
Missing the times we'd hoped it'll never end

Missing the memories we had
Wondering why it can't seem to last

Why we can't be the same as before?
The times when we cared for one another more

When we were younger and still innocent
We promised each other that we'd be "friends forever"

Why is it so hard to hold unto the promise that we had?
Why do you have to be gone so soon?

Missing ya dearly my friend,
Not just one but those who made a difference in my life.

Sloth

I feel like a sloth bear.
You know that bear that is known to be lazy... That's me...
Not too sure which bear?
Imagine the bear from the "Ice Age" movie.

Actually, I find the sloth in the movie an 'overactive' animal.
He talks way a lot & jumps A LOT!
He has this exceptionally BIG eyes esp when he's excited

However, still an unsual active sloth
I think he has ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder).

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that
I've been trying to train myself to sleep early
I've also found out that I now am accustomed to afternoon naps
LONG ONES! too long for my own good
Especially now when I have an assignment that needs to be handed up next Mon
I seem to be taking my sweet time finishing it

I more often give priority to my sleep now than what I'm suppose to be doing
Afraid that I can't stay awake in class
Again, my last minute-ness has caught up with me
Argh! what am I to do?

Well, I am rest assured that I am not the only one
Because it seem that most of my classmates haven't started yet as well
Hooray! I thought for a moment and was a bit relieved
But it doesn't take away the fact that I need it done in 2 days time ><

No time to lose,
I've done my research but still have my textbook to read
Have to get this done ASAP
Wish me for the best that I can't seem to see

Good or bad?

In CG (Nov)
(2-3 months haven't seen the cell member)

Person A: Eh, Liz. You look a bit different ah... why ah? Did you do anything different?
Me: eerrrr... no woh. What is different?
Person A: Oh I know! Your face looks a bit rounder.
Me: ><

Meet up for dinner with relatives (Jan)
Person B: Eh, you put on weight edi woh. Looks better!
Me: hehe *laughs a lil*

Chinese New Year
(ex neighbour in Seksyen 17.. haven't seen for a year or 2... or more?)

Person C: Wah, Liza! So big edi! Put own weight already.
Me: *blush* nods*

Afrer Delirious Concert
(bestfriend.. haven't seen her for almost half a year... last saw her in Dec '05)

Person D: Gal ah.... you look chubbier ler.
Me: Oh, really ah... good or bad ah?


In conclusion, I've put on weight. My face looks rounder & I am chubbier than before (I don't know how to measure how chubby I have become, though). I still eat a lot & I think I better cool it off with the food =P In Aus, we have bigger servings of food. Hopefully, I do more exercise there than here. Then, I can still eat a lot & stay fit, healthy & perhaps be reasonable in my size.

Reunions

Blessed Chinese New Year, everyone!

It's the time of the year again... Family reuniouns, a lot of munching on delicious food, playing games with cousins & all that.

You see, though my relatives are considered nearby (we all live in PJ), if I am not mistaken, we only see each other during 3 occasions. Chinese New Year, Full Moon & one of the Chinese festivals (not too sure what is it called.. something like New Year as well.. i think..oh well).

Most of my relatives aren't Christian & ya know, church always reminds us to take the oppurtunity to share the good news to them. It is pretty hard for me. I invited my cousins (the same age ones) before to some Christian concerts, they've never been able to join in. The others are much older than me. Some married! One of my cousins (christian) married a pastor and they had kids!! *sooo cuteeee!*

Anyway, I have been thinking.. I haven't really done much or prayed much for my relatives salvation. Although, I am not close to them, I should at least pray for them, right? I don't want to imagine the consequences they have to face or I have to face for not doing anything at all.. and just standing... watching... it's not even waiting for something to happen yet. If I pray and wait... den it ain't that bad.. but if I didn't do anything at all, what am I waiting for?

One thing really good is that, because they know that I stopped gambling, they too respected my bro & I, and we do still play card games like "cho tai ti" without gambling. It's really cool! I get to play and not gamble! Woohooo! Also, it's fun that everyone gets to play and still be happy playing together without the need of gambling. Don't ya think so?

I guess, the thing about gambling is... if you do it for fun & in small amounts, I guess it's still kinda ok. The thing scary about gambling is that greed can overpower a person & we base on luck to wanna win more & more for ourselves... If small amounts, can even spark that greed in ya, why start it anyway? Get it? But if you feel it doesn't matter if u win or lose, just a game & a time of 'fellowship' then it's okay. Anyway, if you wanna have some fun, why do we need money to add in the fun? The competition?

Well, gotta log off now. Lunch at cousin's place. So, I guess, what I learnt is that... I neeeddd to pray for my relatives. I still care for them and love them though I am not close to them. Somehow, someway, may God open up their hearts to His message & may it be relevant in their lives.

Blur Queen

I was sooooo sure that my class was at 12p.m.
The info has locked in my mind... 12pm, 12pm, 12pm on Thurs
Waiting for 11.30am's transport to come & pick me up.
But I thought to myself...isn't it an hour & a half class today?
So it ends at 1.30pm? Hmmm.. strange timing.
So, I opened my file...
Thought it was better to check my scheduele again...
Whether it was a 2 hour class or just and hour and a half
*CRAP*

My class is actually from 10am to 11.30am!
*MY GOSH!!!!!*
My class has already started!
Guess what time I checked the schedule?
10.45a.m.

As my friend said, I am the champion of all blurness.

How to live your life 101??!!!

I feel as if people are telling me on how to live my life...
They are like giving me a course of it...
"How to live your life 101"
Argh!!! It's so frustrating at times!

Okay.. I don't blame them.. I know that I can be a wreck!
*ok maybe I am overexaggerating*
I know that I am not organized, irresponsible, independent & all sort.
Even good qualities like.. nice-ness, sweetness & friendliness can be a problem to some extend.
Well, too much of those can 'cause others to be sick. Maybe it's a good thing.. hmmm...

Please forgive me.. but I am just feeling quite sucky at the moment.
So, just give me space & allow me to express myself outwardly...
I am only human!!! I have my own weakness!!! Helloooooo!!! I'm not perfect you know!!!
*phew* okie.. that feels slightly better.

I am wondering.. is it that ppl try to "perfect-ized" (*is there even such a word?*) me
Or am i trying too hard to be perfect?
Perhaps I am trying too hard.

I don't blame others who want to correct me & teach me.
I do wanna be a better person.
What I hate most is those who think that I'll can never change.. and be from what I am. Obviously, it takes time & lotsa patients because I won't be able to correct all at once!
And its a life process you know! it's never instant!
It takes years to mould someone esp from their old habit.
You want instant too bad for ya! well, too bad for me too! >_<

I know.. they are doing it for my best & want me to be a better person.
I am still so far on being the standard of what God would have want us to live...
I thank God for His grace and mercy upon me anyway
Also, His willingless to accept me... even this way.

I guess I just need some time out.
I get so uptight easily and stressed out, frustrated perhaps because...
my body is tired, I don't have much rest
*at times, I don't want to, i don't know whats wrong with me*
I don't seem to have the time to think & reflect.
*even of I do, I'm the kind of person who don't like to think so much.. cuz it can cause me to dwell in my past, guilts & shames *yada yada*

Sometimes, I just wanna stop being a better person because it's just not good enough...
and being a goody person at times even get critisized and shot down.
*sigh*

Even as I feel all this... I do know that many times, I am in the wrong position.
I recognize that pretty well..
However, I wanna push my responsibility of my actions, it'll still come back to me..
So... I guess at the end of the day... why not, just persevere through all this...
Though it's stuff that I don't wanna hear.. and things that is not so pleasing to the ear.
Why not, still be a better person, though it's tough to struggle through?
'cuz at the end of the day... i guess, it'll be all worth it..
because we will be moulded to what He wants us to be.

Even if others are not proud of me..
Even if ppl don't know that I am trying... because it doesn't seem too be so...
I know that at least, He sees my heart... He knows how I feel & my every weakness...
and... perhaps.. I know that He can one day be proud of me.. for trying my best & struggling it through with perseverance...
Because I've done my best to live...

Just tired....

Physically weak
Mentally tired
Emotionally down & unstable
Self esteem kinda severed
Spiritually searching...

What to expect?

Still feeling the dizziness from the plane & rides in Aus, but it's okay.
My body feels really tired... Wish I would a few more days of hols to rest.
Wonder what I did during the hols...
I know that I have been in & out the house so often,
and lack of rest I've recieved.

Semester has already started. I've missed out a week of it...
Am afraid that I'll be really blur in the class (esp the ones which none of my friends are in it).
No books and nothing to prepare myself with
Except a few pieces of paper I can bring & my pencil box.
It's feels kinda wierd to be back again... was kinda excited a few weeks ago.
Now, it seems that all my excitement for many things have all gone.

Wonder what can I expect from my classes this sem.
I still remember the 'Heartcore' camp message.
To start making a different by praying for our classes, lecturers, college & uni.
That's how we start it off, a prayer such as this,
To spark hope and concern as well as a caring heart towards our study place.

My aim for this year,
Is to do my best in all the things I do.
In my studies, I shall excel,
In my CG, I shall guide His people,
In my dance, I shall express my all,
In playing the notes on my keyboard, I shall practice & learn,
And put my fullest potential in all of them.

Just wanna breakaway...

I wanna feel the wind as it genty touches my face,
And blow my tears away,
An assurance that everything will be alright,
And the warmth of being loved for who I am.

Wanna hide in the arms of an angel,
And away from everything else in the world,
Away from the noises and the harsh whispers in my ears,
Yet seeking in silence for just one that could hear my cries.

Waiting for a sign each day,
Wondering whether it'll ever come,
Hoping that it'll be worth while,
Keeping awake so that I won't miss it out.

Why Oh why, I wonder to myself,
Do I have to feel this way?
Why does it have to hurt so much?
Having so many things still unexplained.

I wish upon a starry nite,
and pray that I will be able to hear those words...

"You may not see me but I'm still here",
"You may not hear me but I'll still speak to you",
"You may not feel me but I'll still touch you",
"You may not love me but I'll still love you".

A love so true, no one could comprehend it.
A love so pure, no one could explain it.

"I hear your cries, I hear your pains",
"I see your weaknesses, I see your shames",
"I know your wants and your every need",
"Know that I'm here & always will be"

Stars above... though they're not shining,
They are always there though they look like hiding,
You certainly can't touch them for they're high above,
But they are still there... unseen by us.

Not a traveller!

Hiya peeps, I am blogging from Sydney. For those who don't know, I am here for a family trip, for about a week ^_^

Just wanted to post something short.... so, don't worry. Just sit back & relax.

What I like about travelling:
1) Get to see new places, explore places

2) Get to see all kinds of soveniers & buy them

3) All de scenic places are really beautiful *especially the sea 'n beach here... so clean & clear!*

4) we can take lotsa travelling pics ^^

5) Experience different season
*like in Aussie, you won't sweat even when it's summer! but u'll get sunburn* I need a tan anyway* =P It's windy here too*


What I dislike about travelling:
1) Travel sickness: car, on air, on water
*bumpy roads, winding roads.... arghhhh!!!*

2) You can hardly find any place to eat out here!!! I'm not even asking for mamak! During day time it's hard to find for a place to eat! *seriously!!!*

3) Jet Lag: It's way early to go to sleep, way early to get up to travel around!
*3 hours ahead of M'sia*

4) The scenic places look all the same.. just from different angles perhaps
*can get pretty boring*

5) Different temperature... unstable..
*It can be really sunny, then it the sun light goes dim for a few secs.. den comes back scorching hot again.... *wahliao!* and it can be pretty windy during the summer*


That's all i can think of blogging now. it's already almost 12am here. Take care, peeps! Laterz!


Signing off from Sydney, Australia.