Good to feel again

Have you ever felt this before?

It's like.. you were numb for months because of something that you had to go through in your life. You want to feel certain things but for some reason you just can't or it's really hard for you! For example: Falling head over heals over someone, feeling loved & appreciated, feeling genuinely happy in the inside, able to even really express your feelings out (of course in the right & wise way) etc. Perhaps, it's because of self-confidence, or the way you view the world or people, the lack of faith, past experiences that caused numbness... I don't know. Can be a combination of different reasons.

You know.. sometimes, these feelings come from an unpredictable/unknown sources. God sends different people, which comes on different times that helps you through. Maybe not even through but just one encounter with the person made a difference in your life. He or she has made you think, made you feel something deep within and you are just glad ya know! :)

These people are not necessary the people I am extremely close to. It can even be a person I met in a party or someone I bump into and got to know, hey, you're from my school!!! I've seen you before.... you look awfully familiar, how did we meet? or an old long ago friend you lost contact with... :) and you just cont to start chattin and get connected to the person and BOOM! The encounter between both of you is hard to explain but it's something really good! Something happened that puts a smile on your face XD

I am glad.. someone made me.. feel something again. I shall not membesar-besarkan this feeling because I know I'll get myself into trouble if I do. It may only be there temporarily but I thank God for these people that was sent for such a time as this... to make me feel something (whatever different emotions it may be -esp the good ones).. that I haven't felt for a long time. Thank you... I thank You that I can feel it again!

Part 2: Friends I've Found

CF Gathering: Older + Younger Ones

Okay.. I kinda "crashed" into the party since my dear friend dragged me out. Well, not exactly drag ler... I willingly went for it. LOL! You see, a friend was supposed to invite me (he promised me in United Live Concert) but I didn't get any info about it. Think he doesn't have my contact or he has forgotten me! Man, I haven't seen these kids for like... years! Well, I saw some of them in Planet Shaker's Concert that night, but almost none of them were there yesterday. Odd!

There were only 3 of my year CFers there. Oldest person, Ah Liang was there as per usual. There were a number of our juniors (1 yr younger than us). Great to see all of them. Some came back from US, UK and India-la... Also, we saw lots and lots of juniors (just ended form 5, form 3s.. the ones still studying in high school). Man, I felt sooo embarrassed! Firstly, I was sort of 'crashing' a party but they welcomed me with open arms. Secondly, I wasn't young anymore! I didn't know most of them. But the ones I knew, I am so glad that I am able to get connected and catch up with them. It's really cool and amazing to meet up with people you've been with in high school and see them grow- physically, spiritually & mentally!

Amazing I tell you.. Simply amazing! The guys were charming & the gurls bloomed into roses. The shy ones became more talkative and socialized a lot! Seeing some of the younger ones take lead in CF... it's like WOW!!! Awesome... Just look at the product of someone who started the CF in a house, inspired and passionate for God.. Look at it now.. it's amazing!

I pray that these people would cont to press on with their journey with Christ. I know that the road they take would become harder... come on, it's not easy following and maintaining relationship with God, ya know. But have faith, it is not impossible. The result would be seen when we all start working and grow older!!!

Well, that's all for now. I am sooo proud of all of ya!!!!! XD I thank God for each and everyone of you...

Part 1: Friends I've Found

People I've lost touch but was found again! Amazing!

Belle/Yein Mun. Met in PS Concert! Long time no see & you remembered me! Hope my bro didn't bully ya much! I think you can bully him more rite? *hehe* Same age as my younger bro & yet you're taller than me! Great to see ya again!

Jovy, my CF DJian Junior!!! Great to meet ya againz in PS Concert! Miss ya peeps! Such a blessing to have met ya again! Look at how much you've grown! Continue to mature in Christ ya! If you're looking for a CG, do come to our Pre-U cells! XD

Benjamin!!! Can't believe you lost my autograph book man >_< Still a bit angry & disappointed. However, I forgive you. Great to still see ya around in concerts pal! Becoming more 'leng chai' already someone.

Stephanie~ Thanks for asking me out & catching up gal! You're the bomb! Our group of friends pretty pretty, like models (except me-ler.. I am a lil chubby to be a model). Primary school rox with you, Rose & Sze Mun! Remember our 'club'? -7 Graders! We rule-

Audrey, my ballerina friend when we were kids! I was just thinking about ya few months ago. Never thought I would ever get to see you again because I totally lost ya contacts. I can't believe our paths crossed again! Thanks to Ken for bringing us together again! Am glad :) Keep in touch!

Part 3: HaPpY BiRtHdAy 2 Me!! XD

I had a birthday dinner with my family. When I was a kid/teenager, we usually go "Victoria Station" to makan. As years went by, we head to "San Francisco SteakHouse". As you can see, my taste is kinda expensive. This year we went somewhere different!!! We went "CHILLIS"! Yahooo! XD The portion of food is quite BIG though.

I never thought that my dad would suggest that place. However, it was good! We were so full! I would love to put some pics of my family here but my parents discourage me from doing so. They are afraid that someone may 'curi' the pics and modify it. It was fun going out dinner with my family and all of us happy! I very scared wanz when my parents moody.. They tend to nag me about lotsa stuff and their facial expression, you just don't wanna go near them.

So.. can't show any pics. Sowee! I wanted to pay for dinner but my dad wouldn't allow me to O_o next time then!

Oh ohh.. I forgot to mention, on my birthday, as my friends & I went 'Zuup' in 1Utama to eat, the service there was good! The guys get to play 'Play Station' that was set up at the corner as they wait for their food and when the owner got to know that it was my birthday (think he overheard), each of us got a scoop of ice-cream for FREE! Awesome, right? The food tasted good too! Price were reasonable! They have soup/stew in bread man!!! However, don't expect BIG portions. It's quite ok la. But if you have Ken's stomach, you probably need more food! LOL!

So, "Chillis" and "Zuup" is cool!!! Try Zuup some day.

Part 2: HaPpY BiRtHdAy 2 Me!!! XD

Thought I'll post separately since the other one was longggg~ Don't wanna bore my readers.

Another special thanks to the peeps who wished me via sms & calls for my birthday!!!

1. Mark Ong (2 weeks before my bd O_o)
2. Andrew Lee (a week before my bd)
   
3. My cousin, Jia Jia (a day before... on me blog)
4. Lydia Lim (a day before...)
5. Sook Fern (call in the morning to wish me & check on me)
   
6. Jason (also for your post in your blog to wish me)
   
7. Dexter Tang
   
8. Ding Jian
   
9. Pheng Aun
10. Lucas
11. Pei Wern
12. Joshua San
13. Daniel Yap CS
14. Brian Lee
15. Mandy
16. Michael
17. Unknown because no. wasn't recorded in my hp (I think it was John)
18. James Ong
    
19. Ann Jill
20. Vincent Sia
21. Jimmy
22. Andrea Pang
23. Franky
24. Jeremy
25. Irene Wong
    
26. Lemuel Low (my 'di di')
    
27. Zim Sen
28. Leslie (for calling me!)
29. Alex (for calling me out & made the arrangements for "supper")
30. Jonathan (on MSN)
31. Andrew Tan Yoon Wei (on MSN)
32. Bonnie (on MSN)
    
33. Andrew Tan
34. Chris (on call, whom I met in futsal on my bd)
35. Eric
    

Special thanks also for Birthday Cards & Friendster testimonials by:

1. Debbie (card)
   
2. Pui Fun (card + calling me)
   
3. Matthew (bro's friend)
   
4. Melanie (old school mate)
   
5. Cheryl (met in ACTS church AYA Awards)
   
6. Jovy (junior in high school)
   
7. Ryan (from YQ Camp)
   
8. Audrey Ming (from YQ Camp)
   

Not to forget, special thanks to those who gave me prezzies!

1. Perfume & Cake by my parent's close friends; Aunty & Uncle Khaw.
2. Silver Scarf by my brother.
3. Extra pocket money by my parents.
4. Handphone Anime themes by Joshua San (thanks for the surprise hidden bd prez & being so excited to wish me via sms again & again)
   
5. Belanja-ed drink & half price for dinner? by Daryl.
6. "The Case for Faith" Book by Li Jian, Brian & Alex.
   

I am so sorry if I have forgotten anyone. I hope I mentioned everyone. I tried to track down & remember the peeps to thank them. Thanks ya all again yaaa!!! :)

Part 1: HaPpY BiRtHdAy 2 Me! XD

I would like to thank those who wished me & spent time with me on my birthday, 12th Dec '06. I didn't have a BIG party bash or anything. Actually, I didn't have anything planned for my birthday but I was moved by the messages, calls & efforts my friends put to celebrate my birthday. It wasn't big but indeed it was significant in my life.

Special thanks to those I spent time with...

FLARE
You guys are funny, wei! Cake also out of shape di... all Peter & We-Ki's fault! *LOL* And Peterrr, so gonna get you for touching me when there was cream on your hands. Spread it on my hands some more! *EEEeeeeee!* So oily! Anyway, thanks for celebrating my birthday the night before the actual day and also the rest of the Dec babies. Really appreciate & love ya all!!! Thanks peeps!


My bro & buddy, Ding Jian... who called me in the middle of the night from Malacca to wish me and spent about 2 hours perhaps, talking, catching up with me & just being there as a wonderful friend & bro! I really really miss ya. Hope that we will get to meet again before you leave to UK. You're awesome bro!

My ex-CG members & friends; Ken, George, Kenny, Darlyl, MC & Glenn.
Thank you for letting me join you all for futsal in the afternoon. I didn't have anything to do at home, so I thought, it'll be good if I could spend my day outside instead. I got to learn to kick the ball properly into the goal (though I have a bad aim) & with much energy! I even got to play the last 10 mins in the court with you guys! :) I am really glad that I was able to spend my time with you guys. After that we had dinner in 1U. Boy, I sure was blur. I don't understand why you guys didn't just tell me "we'll bring you out for dinner". Instead, everyone was like so 'kuai kuai shi shi'. Kenny was whispering to Ken and all. Was like "What is going on???!!!!" And Ken just told me this the night before "Make sure you keep tomorrow night free, k?". We had dinner, my pick but Ken was still hungry! *LOL* Anyway, thanks for the dinner guys. Am thankful & glad :) All of your presence really made a difference that day.

My close ex-school mates; Alex, Li Jian & Brian.
I was sooo sooo tired after a long day out, futsal and dinner. After that, I was supposed to meet these 3 peeps for supper at 11a.m.. When I came back, I found something mysterious. I found shoes that doesn't belong to me or my family under the bench. "Who the heck would put shoes under the bench if there were visitors?", I wondered to myself. I asked my bro about it, he said it was his friends.. but there was something different with his response. I asked him whether he was sure, a few times. Boy, he was a bad liar. He laughed from time to time. I knew something fishy was going on. So, I went to his computer room, no one was there. He said, they were upstairs. Nope, no one in the hall.. no one in his room. He said my room. "Why would his friends be in my room? That is super odd". I opened the door.. nothing and it was pitch black. Few seconds later, I jumped. 3 guys were hiding in the bathroom and shouted "boo!". SAKAI!!!! Gonna kill you guys for giving me a heart attack. LOL! Anywayz, thanks you guys for doing this to me. Oh, thanks for the prezzie that was wrapped with lots & lots newspapers and a 'tali' that was tied tightly around it! You guys have all the time in the world man! So free to do such funny nonsense.

Yesterday morning we went for an expedition. No idea how they got up at 6.30am. We were suppose to get up or start walking at 6am, but we all woke up late. We started at 8am instead. Anyway, this is our 2nd time walking to DU, had a "dim sum" and coming back. They refrained me from eating 'MILO ice-cream' on the way back! Such friends I have who keep emphasizing that I am fat! Anyway, thank you guys for your time. I really appreciated the time we had last time and this things did bring back memories of the friendship we have :) Thanks once again!

More about me...

Just doing this for fun! XD

W H O. W A S. T H E. L A S T. P E R S O N. T H A T ...
:: Made you smile? Ding Jian (thanks bro!)
:: Saw you cry? God
:: Went to the movies with you? Family, watched James Bond.
:: You talked on the phone with? Michael.

W O U L D. Y O U. R A T H E R?
:: Pierce your nose or tongue? No thanks for both.
:: Be serious or be funny? Be funny. Think I am too serious di.
:: Drink whole or skim milk? Ermm.. don't quite understand. But I like Aus milk & Full Cream milk! XD
:: Die in a fire or drown? Both also don't one. It's traumatic.
:: Spend time with your parents or enemies? Parents.

D O. Y O U. P R E F E R
:: Flowers or candy? Flowers won't last, yet I don't eat much candy. But I think flowers.
:: Gray or black? Black.
:: Color or Black and white photos? I like both. Color to print, black white for admiration.
:: Lust or love? Love-ler.
:: Sunrise or sunset? Both of God's creation is beautiful! Wish I could watch both with my future partner.
:: M&Ms or Skittles? Skittles the best man!
:: Staying up late or waking up early? I prefer to wake up early but not too early. However, I don't usually do so.

A N S W E R. T R U T H F U L L Y !!
:: Do you like anyone? Nope. Hope that doesn't make me wierd.
:: Ever recorded a sexual act on video? No way! >_< :: Do you fall for the wrong guy or girl? Haha. Perhaps not wrong. Maybe not the one that was meant to be.

D O. Y O U. P R E F E R.
:: Sun or moon? Stars... It's beautiful :)
:: Snickers or Hersheys Chocolate? Hershey's.
:: Left or right? Right.
:: 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? A best friend & few close friends.
:: Sunny or rainy? Not too sunny, not too rainy. Cloudy windy would be good.
:: Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Vanilla's the best.

A B O U T. Y O U!
:: What time is it? 1.06 a.m.
:: Name? Elizabeth Hie
:: Nickname(s): Liza, Liz, Lizzie, Squirrel, Lizard
:: What is your birth date? 12th December 1986
:: What do you want right this second? ...... *thinking* ...... True friends who are around that I can talk to.
:: Where do you want to live? Nice comfortable condo / nice interior designed house with wide spaces.
:: How many kids do you want? Max 4. Ideal 3.
:: You want to get married? Yes! XD
:: Can you roll your tongue? Nope.

O T H E R S:
:: Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Cut then twirl!
:: Have you eaten spam before? O-o what?
:: Favorite ice cream? Vanilla with cookies in it. Raspberries!
:: How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? 1, I think. CocoCrunch!
:: What's your favorite type of soda? I hardly drink sodas. Not a fan. But best of all, is Sprite.
:: Do you cook? Not really. Learning.

I N .T H E. L A S T. M O N T H , H A V E. Y O U ?
:: Had a crush? Yeah. But... just crushes and it's over.
:: Bought something? Shopped a lot recently XD
:: Sang? Yeah man! Love singing!
:: Been hugged? Yepz! In camp, when have to say bye to peeps I've met.
:: Felt stupid? Oh, many times.
:: Missed someone? Yepz. My buddies who are not around. Close friends who are no longer close.
:: Danced crazy? I wish! Don't hv the guts!
:: Gotten your hair cut? Nope. Next week!
:: Cried? Unfortunately, yeah.
:: Lied? Think so.
:: Stole anything? Nah. Nopez.

Off for a camp again!

I'll be away for 'Youth Quake' Camp. I don't know what to feel about this camp. It's a mixture of excitement & nervousness. I don't really have much expectations for this camp. This is my first camp that I went to which combines all Methodist Christian Youth together in a camp. I usually attend my own church youth camps.

This year I've been going for camps quite often.

List of camps:-

1. Pre-U Getaway (DUMC) - Apr '06
2. Psychology Camp (HELP University College - ADP/BPsyc) - May '06
   
3. HELP CF Camp (HELP University College) - June '06
   
4. Leader's Retreat (DUMC) - June '06 - July '06
   
5. Campus Youth Camp (ACTS Church/Campus City) - Aug '06
6. CG Retreat (PreU3 CG DUMC) - Sept '06
   
7. Now, Youth Quake - Dec '06

Crazy huh? It has been pretty cool though. I made lots of friends, learnt a lot from people & leaders there. Refreshed spiritually and tried to hold unto the passion they had in the camps. It has been good-la.

What are my expectations for this Youth Quake camp?

• Make friends that would last.
  
• Make a difference in someone's life and I pray that I'll meet someone that will make a difference in mine as well.
• Refreshed spiritually.
• Able to surrender my all to Him.
  
• Inspired & a deeper desire to want to know Him more.
• Passion for His Name.
• Reaffirmed purpose for my life.

I guess... like that la. Pray for my friends & I who are going for the camp for the first time k. Thanks peeps!

Will see ya all again next week :)

My Albums 2!

Part 2: Encouraging Notes & Inspirational Cards or Bookmarks

Sample of my albums!

Inspirational postcards


Bookmarks bought from Christian bookstores

Bookmarks & notes by friends


Inspirational poems/quotes shared by a dear bro & friend


Award from my best friend & appreciation note

THE END!

My Albums!

Part 1: Stickers

Can't sleep. So I thought of putting these pics on :) These are the proves of albums I have! Both stickers & encouragement album.

Top 4 are my sticker albums.
Bottom 2 bigger albums are for encouraging notes & inspirational cards.


Stickers I bought this morning:

Precious Moments & Tweety Bird!


Disney Princess' - Kids & Grown-up - Belle, Cinderella, Jasmine, Fiona, Snow White & Ariel.


Disney Characters babies! - Mickey, Minnie, Donald, Daisy, Goofy!

Had a new album of stickers but these pictures above are sufficient enough.



My previous collection when I was a kid:

As you can see all cartoons. Used to a fan of "Sailormoon".


It'll be too many of I show you guys/gals all my stickers. So, these pictures kinda give ya all an idea on how my collections are like.

"Patience" by Take That

Just have a little patience...

I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration.
Any minute all the pain will stop.
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight,
don't be too hard on my emotions

Chorus:
Cause I need time.
My heart is numb, has no feeling.
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again,
I know you wanna be my salvation.
The one that I can always depend.

I'll try to be strong. Believe me,
I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me.

Chorus

Yeah, have a little patience, Yeah

Bridge:
Cause these scars run so deep,
It's been hard,
But I have to believe in me.

Have a little patience,
Have a little patience...

Woah

Chorus (x2)


Special thanks to a dear friend who sent me this song :)

Chores

*Knock knock* -ARGH!!!!!- It's morning already? Sheesh! I felt as if I've just fallen asleep.

It was time to wake up and go to the MARKET! -_- Exact time? 9.15am in the morning! Thank goodness I cancelled my previous appointment. I wouldn't be able to make it. Even if I did, I wouldn't be able to pay attention to what the speaker was talking.

So, up and away, I went to the Tmn Tun Market. I got to choose a lot of different types of veggies. Mum gave instructions to pick certain veggies. She had point them out because I wouldn't know which veggie is what. So, I learnt the art of choosing veggies this morning. Mum said that it could last us about 2 weeks. Wow! That means, my mum actually goes marketing every 2 weeks. I though it was once a month or something. Oh well...

I revisited my childhood memories by buying stickers from the market. I know... I know... I gotta remind myself that I am already 20 years old! But.. who cares? I haven't shopped for stickers for like 10 years already. It's only RM 1 for 1 batch. So, I bought some! It's nice & cute!!! I would love to keep it & show my sticker books to my daughter next time. Perhaps, I can shoot some pics of it & put it on my blog later! I remembered I used to collect them and I had a good collection collection! I'm serious!

I used to love to collect stickers, stamps, bookmarks, notepads, erasers etc. Now, I collect photographs, print them, arrange & stick them into albums. I have 2 albums for encouraging notes/inspirational bookmarks + postcards too! I took out my sticker books that I've kept aside & added in the stickers I bought today! Unfortunately, some of the stickers were too big!!! Nooooo~ I have to make room for it to fit somehow... someway.

I had breakfast with my parents. I haven't had breakfast with them for months.... *that shows how often I am actually around*. It wasn't as fun as it used to be. Now, every time I am out with them, they have to bring up the issues of responsibilities, things I need to prepare when I am in Aussie... yada yada. Sheesh! Isn't there any other topic to talk about??? I hardly here anything pleasant when I am around them! It gets on my nerves many times. That is one of the reasons why I don't like spending time at home. I just feel pressured around them! >_<

Anyway, after breakfast, I came back and just dropped myself on the couch. I watched some TV, go online for a while and before I knew it, ZzzzZzzz *snooze*- got knocked out. I rested from 1pm - 4.30pm. Thanks to my bro, who woke me up when he came in and watched TV in the hall. Well, I shouldn't sleep too long anyway. Wait.. since when my bro actually watch anime? O_o pretty interesting though. I was watching TV in the evening & went online for a while until my dad asked me to go help my mum in the kitchen.

I had a dream when I took my afternoon "nap". Never thought I would dream about the person again. Wierd! Well, it was nice I guess but I know it wouldn't come to reality. Sad but true. I think I've come to accept reality already. That's why I didn't feel as disappointed as I used to. Just told myself it was a dream & moved on with my life.

Learnt a bit of cooking for dinner. I sliced the beef, marinated it and fried it. What else? Did some "Otak-otak" (Indonesian dish - fish paste), 2 ways of cooking- fried & boiled. For vegies we had some big "Tau gehS" (don't know what you call it in English/Chinese). That's about it. We do not really eat a lot as a family. My mum is a light eater, so is my dad. Think my bro would try to wipe off all the food at the end of the day.

The Christmas tree is up. Again, I wasn't involved to help to put up the tree, as always. I thought it would be good if I could be part of it this time when they put up the tree... but I was asleep. Guess, they just gotten used to doing things without me. So, they didn't even bother to wake me up.

So yeah.. that was my whole day. I gotta be around at home more often... I think I struggle to do so because of different issues. I mean, it's not bad to be at home. The place is comfortable, my parents are nice good parents, I have a bro that cares for me. Just that, sometimes I just don't feel as if I belong here. I don't feel I am needed around. They seem to need me when I am not around or have already made plans. When there is no one at home, I just bum around and waste my time. When my parents are at home, I feel pressured at times. I love having my younger bro around but it's not like we have anything in common to do.

That's why I rather spend my day out, doing something with people. At least, I get to really talk to them, relate with them, spend time with them & do things together with them... or at least with someone! I get to move around too & do something useful. I won't feel so lazy.

Yeah... but home is home. I need to start treating my family as a priority and I can't run away from responsibilities I have here. I know I'll regret it when I am older. If it's already hard now for me, it's not gonna get any easier in the future. I just have to start doing something about it or change my attitude about this.

Failed attempt

I thought tonight I can sleep much much earlier. I washed my face, brushed my teeth, way before the clock strucks 12. Then right, close to 12am, my dad called me into his room... He gave me more work to do for his 'Treasure Hunt' event. I had to help him with the power point presentation and typing in the candidates who registered for the event.

Man, I thought I might as well do it at the spot. I didn't want to push the task to the next day because I had some plans in the morning and I was afraid that I would further procrastinate the task to another day. So.. I went ahead to fix up whatever that is needed in the Excel file & PowerPoint presentation slides. It took me close to 3 hours to finish it!!! I thought I could do it within half an hour or 1 hour the max. My gosh!!! I think I took about 1 and a half to 2 hours to finish what I needed to do and thought to myself that it was done! Boy, I was wrong. There were lil minor things, here & there that I needed to fix up... Also, my dad needed to make sure that the transitions of the slides were in order and made sure the timing was perfect for it to flow with the music that would be played at the background during the event itself. I think that itself took about another hour!

Man oh man... Oh, I realized that when I am given a task like this, I like to do it quickly & rush to finish it. Not because it is very boring. Simple reason - If I can do things fast and I know I am capable of doing that, I would like to do it quickly-la. I don't like to waste time. Then again, I think because of that mentality, I always seem to rush my work through. I do check carefully-ler and made sure I did it correctly without any errors. However, I think I am a bit neurotic. It's because I am rushing and doing things so quickly, I am a bit 'kan chiong'. I tend to be very quick to do things before I am told. Like just now my dad wanted to ask me click on something, my fingers were ever ready to click on something on the page & sometimes I assume what he was gonna say. So, he had to ask me to not rush & listen to his instructions. When I really listened & try to digest the information into my mind, I had this few seconds lag for a moment. I wasn't sure whether the reason of my 'lag' was because I was tired or what.. but sometimes, I do experience it from time to time even when I am energetic.

Perhaps I was trying hard to focus.. and focusing isn't an easy task for me these days. No, I don't have "Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder" (ADHD). Well, I really hope I don't. I know I didn't have it when I was a kid. So, if I do have it now, it probably came about in my recent years. Of course when you struggle having the focus, when you try to, you have a 'lagging' period to digest the information given, into your brain. I should think it works that way.

In conclusion, I think the reason I was "lagging" because my brain was no longer really active as I was tired & I have problems focusing. Period.

Anyway, moral of the story, if I am given any task close to or past 12am, I SHOULDN'T try to attempt it at all. Just leave it aside and go to sleep! Make time the next day to do it. Unless, I desperately know that I can't leave it to the next day (eg. assignment pass up the day after) or I have no other time at all to do it. I need to learn to leave my worries to tomorrow... Learn to rest, learn to prioritize on more important things like my health & be less neurotic! SELF-CONTROL is the key!

Lizzie needs to learn to take care of herself. She seem to suck in it. Oh no!!! I need to have mercy on myself when I am Aussie as I'll living independently there. Good luck to myself. Oh well, I have about 2 months to catch up & learn, rite? :)

Thoughts on Aussie 2

Heard some bits & pieces about Adelaide.
Now I am kinda excited to go over to Aussie. Life there seem to be less complicated.
Although there is nothing much to do there, perhaps I can pursue my passions.. such as dancing & singing!! XD It'll be so exciting!

They said in Aussie, you'll be free as a bird. Well, not as hectic as M'sia, that's for sure. I'll be able to let my hair down... learn to relax. Some of my friends were so sure that I'll go wild with the freedom I have. Well, don't think I can do much there :S LOL!!! They can put their bets on it if they want! Jk jk..

Anyway, I think I am ready to let go of the things & people here. At first, I thought it would be really scary but I am more confident, when I heard my friends' stories about the people they meet there as well as the very well kept environment. They seem to doing well there. I hope it'll be easy for me to mix around & adapt too.

I guess, I will always fear the many possibilities that may happen when I am there. But I'm not even there yet, so what the heck?! I'll just leave my worries to 'tomorrow'.. or rather when I am actually there to worry about it. I am damn blur about the accommodation arrangements & all, but I think, it can be worked out-ler.

So.. I guess... I am kinda excited :) I am excited now la! *haha* It'll surely be different.. but who knows? Perhaps it'll become a place that I really wanna be in... Who knows? Maybe migrating there isn't as bad as I thought it would be as well.

I hope to spread my wings and fly to the right places. I pray that I'll be able to truly enjoy my stay there, to pursue my passions & do my best in all that I can!

Wish me the best ya! 2 more months & I'll be off...

Process of Recovery & Thoughts on Aus

Yey! I am recovering :) Still in the process of it but I do feel much better now. Thanks to the peeps who has been encouraging me via cyber-world/smses, "drink more water, sleep earlier ah, remember take your med..etc etc"

As you all know, I'll be flying off to Aussie-land to do my 3rd year really soon - in 2 mths time.
Frankly, I am quite worried. I kinda look forward to it.. just a tiny bit actually. I fear not knowing what my future would be like there. Sure I have friends who are already there & even made new friends there thru' friendster/mail. However, I still feel insecure about the whole new environment, staying on my own, new uni & peeps there.

Like I've said, I have a few friends (whether close a not) there already. I've been reading one of their blogs and it really encouraged me. He really enjoys himself there! Even another friend that came back from Aus & we chatted a bit, he told me that he LOVED the place! Now, why would I be so surprised?

"Wow!" I thought to myself. Would I be able to adapt that well when I get there? What I know for sure is, I ain't prepared for this trip. I don't know how to prepare myself because I don't really know what to expect! >_< I hope that I'm not freaking myself out while typing this.

I am & will be sad to leave my friends & family behind. I am however excited that I would be able to gain new experiences, meet new people & perhaps move on in my life there. I don't know how much I'll like that place. I don't know how much I'll hate it because it'll be so different than M'sia.

I guess all I'll know is that... God will lead me through this. He will be holding my hands as we walk through this... On the condition that, I would hold His hands & walk with Him as well.

Feeling horribly sick

*sobz*

Getting sore throat was bad enough. Getting sore throat with phlegm & when your ears is kinda involved too.. cough too ARGH!!!

I just don't feel so good.. When I woke up this evening from my "nap", my head feels horrible. Dizziness! Sore throat got worst & all connected to my nose, ears & headdd. I hope this would be over in a day!!!

Nnnoooooooooo~ Can't talk straight & I hv a feeling it got to my eyes too.. I tear when I cough. PAIN!!! Coughing is painful! Sneezing is painful too! HELPPP!!!!!

One Of My Passions

Firstly, today I had fun hanging out with me ex-CG members / PreU gang. It's pretty cool. So glad for those who came back from Aussie already!

Anyway, today in FLARE I really enjoyed myself. I get to sing!!!! I not only get to sing, I get to harmonize! XD I like. I feel that when I sing, I am able to express myself more and do it whole heartedly. Better than playing keyboard me think. I really enjoy singing.. and at times, dancing too.

I still remembered that when I was in early secondary school, one of my passion was to sing. I wanted to be like Darlene Zschech from Hillsong. LoL! I remembered very well that I wanted to be a worship leader but my voice wasn't loud enough. I used to be able to compose songs, but now I don't know whether the gift is taken away since I suppressed that gift (cuz of intimidation) or didn't practice my gift.

I'm glad that I am still able to sing. When I sing now, I try harmonize because most of the time, I can't reach the melody.. either too high or too low for my voice to reach. So, I try to use my talking voice to sing. Comes out clearer & louder. Also, I get to be creative! :) I like!

So yeah.. I'm glad because I got to sing today & was reminded of my passion for singing I had once. I wish to invest in singing skills and other skill that I have, esp my passion in music.

Aches

I sure am getting old.

I remembered just a few weeks ago, I went for morning walk in Kiara Park in TTDI, next day, my feet hurts for a day or 2.

Just yesterday (Sat morning), my feet & back hurts as a result of jumping in 'United Concert' while I praised & worship God.

That same morning, I gave tambourine lessons to dancers in my cousin's church. After 3 hours of lessons, the pain spreaded. There were a lot of jumping & turning involved. Anything to do with footwork-la. LOL!

This morning, I felt as if I can't move my whole body. My back around my shoulder area, hurts. When I was half awake, half asleep (half conscious), I felt that my legs muscle pulling a few times, as if I strained it during sleep. *OUCH* painful! Yet, I can't really wake up because I was still half asleep!!!!!

I couldn't wake up for long in the morning. No energy to move much because of the pain as well in the morning. Skipped meeting because of the pain. Didn't feel well because of it either. I ended up waking up at 10am++ den sleep back at 11am++ till 1pm++.

I was also kinda limping the whole day. It still hurts now >_<

I either need to exercise more.. or never do any heavy activities/sports anymore to avoid anymore pains like these.

I think I'll choose to exercise more!

Finally, new layout!

Yey! Finally new layout and background. Kinda like this one.
This isn't exactly what I thought of, but better than the previous boring background.
Such a turn off whenever I visit my own blog. I needed some color in my blog!
I still can't find what I wanted or something that shouts out my passion.
I wanted a graphic, a blog that kinda portrays who I am or smtng.

Anyway, thanks to the peeps who were willing to help, whether you could or couldn't at the end. Also, those who helped me find some great layouts & gave me opinions.
Thanks also to another friend who sacrificed some time to look into my blog & gave me pointers on html codes (eg. changing font color & size).
Oh... not to forget, a bro who downloaded a programme into my comp to make web-making easier!!! Though I am still blur blur on how to use the prog, it's okie.. will find ya for pointers.

You know who you are ler ;) Thanks so much for helping me make it happen!

Got Tagged

Part 1: On the Outside
Name: Elizabeth Hie
Birth Date: 12 December 1986
Current status: Single
Eye Color: Dark brownish
Hair Color: Black & Dark Brownish
Righty or Left: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Saggitarius

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage: Chinese, Hakka, Cantonese, Quater blood Indonesian.
Your Fear: Rejection - Ppl close to me who shuts me away, Unknown future, Living w/o passion & purpose.
Your Weaknesses: Discipline, Self-Control (eg. eczema), Paranoia, Too Dependent on others.
Your Perfect Pizza: Pepperoni/Seafood Delight... cheese in the crust!

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: "What time is it now?"
Your bedtime: 3 a.m.
Your most missed memory: My childhood with family, school/uni friends rox & someone special I had in my life

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Erm.. not much difference.. Pepsi me think.
McD or Burger King: Quite jelak of McD, yet Burger King I always eat the same burger.
Single or Group Dates: Group for starters perhaps, single later. Depends...
Adidas or Nike: Nike.
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Erm, I can't remember how both looks like.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla.
Cappucino or Coffee: Cappucino. Can't drink too much of both.. can get headache & nausea.

Part 5: Do You...
Smoke: Nope. Really dislike it when ppl smoke around me. Hard to breathe & my hair will suffer the consequences too.. it smells bad.
Curse: When I am really frust, in my mind I prob did, but I try to control it. It gets harder each day.

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: Yes. Wine, Tequilla & Vodka.
Gone to the mall: Of Course... O-o Shopped a lot recently. Gonna shop again soon!
Been on stage: Yepz... Worship keyboardist.. Used to dance.
Eaten sushi: Oh boy! SHOGAN rox!
Dyed your hair: Not yet. Will highlight before I leave to Aus. Woohoo!

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: EeewW! Don't wanna see anyone stripping *cover my eyes* & no way I'll do it.
Changed who you were to fit in: Yeah, it's called peer pressure! I'm sure many ppl did! Also, I'm sure we were looking for our identity.

Part 8: Marriage
Age you're hoping to be married: 25,26 would be ideal... 27 max.

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye Color: Doesn't really matter. I'll love him anyway!
Hair Color: Doesn't really matter. I'll love him anyway!
Short or Long Hair: Preferbly, short, but not too short.

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago: Typing this tagged thingie.
1 hour ago: Watching TV & Chattinz online.
4.5 hours ago: Just got up from bed! (12.30pm)
1 month ago: Working.
1 year ago: Studying! I miss studying & my college mates!

Part 11: Finish The Sentence
I love: Trying to.. love my God more... my family, my friends!
I feel: Really really bored...
I hate: Lust, Devil.
I hide: What I think ppl can't accept about me.. darkest secrets?
I miss: My friends!!!!
I need: God, my family & friends. A boyfriend would be nice! LOL!

Part 12: Tag 5 People
YOU....who ever is reading this
Anyone who has a blog???
Anyone who is bored and would do this for fun! LOL
Jason Teo (my lil kid big bro.. LOL!)
Dexter